Drinking Coffee ~ Living Life

The Days of 010110 --> 090210!!

2010-02-09T20:11:00.003+08:00

Job (weekdays) --> i actually love my workplace. one reason, because all my colleagues and boss are real friendly to me, even though i am just a part-timer. that's why i am happy working there.

~ same routine 9am-6pm

~ records outgoing and incoming letters

~ double check old files before destroying them

~ close files' accounts

~ giving a ride to my colleague to banks and etc

~ eat eat eat drink drink drink

~ photostat

~ e-mailing

~ misc job

Nights --> random + spontaneous

~ outing with friends

~ outing with family

~ outing with sisters and brothers

~ kacau-ing my on duty friends

~ facebooking

~ need for speed underground 2

~ surfing

~ sleep (duh)

Weekends --> REST^^

~ visit grdma in Kampar

~ visit aunt and cousins in Subang + shopping with them in Sunway Pyramid

~ shopping with friends at KL

~ surfing + facebooking

~ nfsu2

~ + some spontaneous activities!!

Other free time --> miscellaneous

~ daydreaming

~ television

~ and daydreaming again.

Reunion of the 4 Gangsta^^

2010-01-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

so called gangsters (because of a photo we took back in secondary sch with our full blazer and tie), but neh... just for fun. the four of us, shawn, kumar, jeya and me, after such a long time, we had our trip together again. we usually had our regular trip to ipoh together at intervals since secondary school, and finally we manage to do it again.

we finally manage to sync our time since december for this trip. a little advanced, this time we travel to KL midvalley^^ and also the bus journey plus extra one hour. as usual, one day trip. so nostalgic to have back travelling memories with u guys. i love it very much. i am looking forward for our next trip^^

our bus actually departed late, and i was like a bit cursing, erhm, but it turn out that the bus reach quite earlier than expected. and pudu suckz, it getting more more congested than last time. roughly 20 buses are queuing up to enter pudu. we walked all the way to midvalley, lol, as if... we walk all the way at nearly the junction to time square to pudu to take a metrobus to midvalley^^

first thing first, as usual, cinema^^. we actually at first decide to watch avatar again, in 3D, but change to sherlock holmes after final discussion. the show is not bad, but not as good either. some lame jokes, and some jokes which ony some understand. the show was at 140pm, so after ticketing, we had our lunch at nando's chickens. my first time, and it really taste good, even better than kenny roger's, to me. and apparently, i spend rm6 on a super tiny cup of expresso.

before the show, we actually split into two groups, shawn and i head to shop around while kumar and jeya went for pooling. there are so many things i wanna buy, that is nice, this is nice... but, financial prob and financial budgeting, haiz. and bout the padini tie i saw earlier, i guess i should have bought it. hahahaha^^

after midvalley, we actually proceed to petaling street, lol. hahahaha. and at the end of the journey, we had our dinner at kfc opposite pudu. and now i realize that we actually had chickens for both lunch and dinner. hahahaha. total spending for me this time apparently is quite less:

rm28.40 for bus tickets to and fro KL

rm3.60 for metrobus to and fro midvalley

rm20.** for lunch

rm17.00 for movie and popcorn

rm1.80 for tea time

rm10.** for dinner

rm0.00 on shopping

The life after STPM^^

2010-01-03T12:09:00.009+08:00

it's been awhile since i last update, due to my laziness to update every single moment and details of my life. so, i now packed it all up and write it all out in one post, a short brief activities i enjoyed throughout my holidays, and for my remembrance in the future, of course. haha^^

right after stpm, as in last post, i went to Malacca. <>... Okay, Christmas 2009, i had it differently this time. usually, i would only hang out with friends, without festive mood. But, this time, i participated in a Christmas Musical Drama in Wesley Church on Christmas eve. it was around 3rd quarter of the year 2009 that Mrs. Grace Ho, invited me to join, and i actually did hesitate at the beginning. now, i know i didn't make the wrong choice. I did not regret.

I made new friends, i experiencing Christmas mood more or least. Through this musical too that it reminds me of those cheerful and joyful moments back then when i was in my school choir 2005-2007. the practices, the competitions, the trips, it's so nostalgic. but there was one thing which i was a little disappointed, to be honest, is that none of friends came, sorry to say. never mind, i believe there had their own reasons^^. The musical lasted for 1 hour, apparently, and we sang:

1) Here we come-a-carolling

2) We wish you a Merry Christmas

3) Hallelujah, Jesus Christ the Lord is born

4) Come, Shepherds, Leave your Flocks

5) The First Noel

6) Christmas Angel

7) What Child is This?

8) How Should a King Come

9) Silent Night

10) When a Child is Born

11) Immanuel

12) Emmanuel has Come

13) Christmas isn't Christmas

14) We Light a Thousand Candles Bright

15) Celebrate the Child

16) Joy to The World

17) Felix Navidad

Us, group photo^^

one part where we use candles^^

this is Ella, the cute joyful kid^^

after the musical, 2nd round of my Christmas eve was hanging out with friends in old town. other than chit chat, nothing much, until 1230am. but we break our records, for the first time in our life, 8 person in one car^^ lol... hahaha.

somehow, i manage to secure myself front seat. and at the back seat is actually 6 peoples^^

Nothing much on Christmas day itself

Christmas morn, i attended a service - 1st Sunday after Christmas - at Wesley Church. First timer to me.

Afternoon, Quah and I drive down to Shawn house for a Christmas lunch and for trying out xbox. lol. hahaha.

Night, hang out with siblings at Menara Condong and celebrate Hui San and Siew Ling 四姐 pre-birthday.

26th Dec, i participated in Methodist Youth Night, also held in Wesley Church. Some games, some songs, some prayers, some makan-makan, some sharings. Never expected that i would actually decide to go. Lucky Mary and Jonathan Woon is there, at least i can chit chat with them^^, cause since i am still new and not know much of the church member^^

some of the attendees for the Youth Night^^

The next major thing is that I actually got hired for work in a lawyer firm, as a lawyer assistant. hahaha, neh, i am just an office boy. Miss Kee introduced and recommended me to land into this job. I can't believe it that i actually now having my first working experience. Though i cant help much, thanks for giving me a chance to gain experience. I am working in A.M. Ong & Partners. 9am-6pm, mon-fri.

new year eve, we all, gathered at syann house for bbq^^ more cost effective and more joyful, that's why we decided to celebrate the last day of 2009 this way. we chit chatted, bbq, almost till 1230am, again. ahahaha. we dai kor jai dai kor lui dy. this bbq too mark the first time i really bbq a chicken perfectly nice^^

and the latest was, yesterday, with friends (syann, yan, phong, jyan, quah), we went to KL times square for shopping. nothing much for me to buy other than some polo tee for me to wear to work. roughly the bill for me is:

1) RM28.40 - bus ticket to and fro

2) RM126.00 - 4 polo tee

3) RM25.00 - lunch and dinner

during our journey back, instead of sleeping, we chat whole way throught for 3hours... hahaha^^ nice nice...

and that's all the updates. for more photos:

Christmas eve and Christmas Afternoon: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45494&id=1364032598

Christmas Night: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45503&id=1364032598

Methodist Youth Night: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=175320&id=788759135

New Year Eve: Waiting

KL Times Square: none

Malacca Backpacking^^

2009-12-17T08:25:00.017+08:00

well, i was quite a bit lazy to update the blog, but here it is, my trip to Malacca. Apparently, the planning took planning made quite early, but the decision to go was made on the evening of Dec 10th, that is the eve of the trip. =="'

How to go? Direct bus to Malacca from Teluk Intan, Transnational bus, cost rm30, or u may opt to take a bus to KL or Seremban, then, switch bus to Malacca from there. Basically, the price is still almost the same. 5 hours journey, including some rest along the way.

there, that's our bus^^

about accomodation, siew ling 四姐 took care of it. We stay at Little Nyonya Youth Hostel, rm12 per person per night, if u have four per room. Or rm15 per person per night if you have 3 per room, and rm20 per person per night if you have two per room. It took us quite sometime to locate the hostel when we arrive, since we are new to Malacca. Apparently, we took a big circle route and many asking before we manage to find it. With a little clue with us, it's just like Amazing Race. ahaha^^

this is our accomodation, cheap, and living able^^. one double storey bed, one single bed, and one mattress. for four^^

basically other than our transportation from Malacca Central to Malacca town, most of the time we travel by foot. After all, it is all within walking distance, the tourist attraction, the night market, or even the shopping complex^^. Yea, we go all the way to Malacca for a movie, The princess and the frog, we watched it at GSC in a whatever mall u name it. I will leave the rest to the photos.

this is the nearest location to our hostel^^

that's the "black pearl" and the ferris wheel dubbed Eyes on Malaysia^^

Jonker Walk, Malacca answer to Petaling Street^^

no, it's not fish ball, it is chicken rice ball. this mark the first time i trying it out, and also the last time i will be eating it. it taste awful. XD

it looks as though we were in Vienna, so we took the river tour of Sungai Melaka. in a boat of course.

Malacca road system is a a bit awkward. You will see only one way road most of the time. and its flow is either connecting to form a road, or it spread to many roads. And the town bus system, to me, it sucks. Portuguese Square is quite faraway from our hostel. We walked all the way there, but decided to take a bus back. Guess what, we were waiting at the bus stop for so long, and not a bus came. In Ipoh or KL, almost 10-15mins there will be one bus. Maybe it is because Malacca always traffic jam (morning, afternoon, evening and night) and mostly one way road.

come to malacca, sure lah must come to baba n nyonya house^^ rm8 per person, full guided tour^^

and of course the historical square or whatever u name it.

our McD ice-cream in the "i don't know what is it called" shopping complex^^

The arc at the entrance to Portuguese Square^^

nope, there isn't any girls on the beach, but only mermaids around^^

here is it, the famous satay celup in Malacca. u need a long queue here before you are served. and we waited around 40mins to get a table. and this restaurant apparently is too famous in malacca till there are notices written: -"Dear valued customers, please be informed that Capitol Satay DO NOT have any sisters, brothers or branches in Malacca or anywhere else. DON'T BE MISLED! Thank you". satay celup is not the ordinary satay we celup in the satay sauce, but at here it is steamboat in satay sauce. and the waitress is kind enough to notify the customers "saman, saman, saman" when the police arrive to summoned the cars parked on no parking area^^.

the taming sari tower. 110m high. and the "tourist room" or whatever u call that (pic below) travel up and down using hydraulics. rm10 per ride, for an entire view of Malacca town at night, and also the straits of Malacca.

this tower concludes our trip to Malacca basically. on the last day, we left malacca at 11am, to KL. direct bus from Malacca to TI is only available 930am and 8pm. so we take the former route instead. too bad, KL bus to ti 2pm is sold out, so we have to stuck for another 2 hours for 4pm bus. we hang out at McD and Popular bookstore. bought myself some magazines and i dunno why i buy this book - Chicken Soup For the Soul: My Resolutions

for more photos: u may check out my facebook: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=44288&id=1364032598

though it end so fast, i really enjoy myself there. i miss it very much T.T

Finally, it's OVER!

2009-12-14T19:02:00.003+08:00

my journey for stpm had finally come to an end... haha^^, though i am late to update my blog. time really flies. for a moment i was just in lower six, then, the beginning of upper six, and now, finish with 3 weeks of exam. all the stress that had been held so far, phew, i can dump it aside for the moment. and hopefully that i will be able to score 2A2B.

there are so many plans running in my mind. i wanna do this, i wanna do that, undecided. i wanna travel, i wanna loiter, i wanna read books, i wanna play games, i wanna learn guitar, i wanna exercise, i wanna sleep, i wanna watch tv and movies, i wanna...i wanna...i wanna. lol

and the first activity i engaged in is a xmas musical. yes, i will perform in a xmas musical, on the 24th of dec in Wesley Church. we are still practicing^^ 10 more days to xmas eve, and we have 15-17 songs to perform to you, at the same time, we wanna bring out the meaning of christmas to you. so on the 24th, you are invited to wesley church, 630pm... see ya then...

the third activity i carry out, a trip to Malacca with my sisters, Siew Ling and YinShia, and my buddy, Jeya. I just came back from the trip, that's why i am late to update my blog right after my STPM. three days, with a budget of rm200, yes, you can enjoy a trip to Malacca. A direct bus to Malacca cost rm30, accommodation is rm12 per person per night, a little transportation, foods, and mostly backpacking. i really miss the trip very much. fun and happy time sure end fast. (details of my trip to malacca will be updated soon, when i have the complete set of photos)

hey, wait, where's the second activity? haha^^ the night itself right after my last exam paper, my buddies and i had a boys' night. Shawn, Kumar, Jeya, Quah, Loo, and me, went to a cyber cafe to play counter strike. ahahaha^^ sounds lame, but we did enjoy ourselves. but sadly, due to unable to sync our timing, we were unable to have a trip together to KL for shopping. i am terribly sry for that.

meanwhile, there is a lot of things i need to do. cleaning my messy room is one of it. then giving advice to my junior prior to their National Service, and not to forget, friends outing. hahaha. cleaning the house prior to CNY is also in my list, apparently. hahaha^^ and pray to God that i will not ruin the xmas musical.

Happy Holidays everybody. Plan your holidays well, and enjoy it. and to all my form 6 buddies, i heard that our results will be out on 23rd of February 2010. ^^

生命中的朋友smzdpy concert 1017 Teluk Intan!

2009-10-24T20:41:00.005+08:00

well, it take some time before i wrote this post because i was waiting for the photos, which i did not get all yet too. hahahahaha. but nevertheless, i wanna jot this event down as a remembrance. officially, i wasn't part of the team, but at the last moment, 3 days b4 the event that jane and i decided to lend a helping hand. seriously, i wasn't much a help as compare to other helpers. thx alot to them, for their hard work, for their willingness to spend time, for their determination to help. gratz to everybody involved, the concert is a success.

it may be shocking earlier hearing that tickets still had a lot unsold, but within the week prior to the concert, the tickets are SOLD OUT. i bought ten plus one free, i used four, and the rest is returned and sold to someone else. wow. that's a huge success. tickets sold out. that means around 1K plus listeners were at the concert. Amazing.

well, during the pre-concert, one things that make me experience it the first time, OT till early in the morning. it was the day before concert, and jane and i went over to PBHP at 8pm, hoping to help. and surprisingly, we help out and accompanied our 二姐 hoay yee till 2+am in the morning, lol. and after 4-5hours of sleep, and we all gathered again for final preparation in the town hall at 730am. this was first time for me, nvr tried OT outside my house till so late, and surprisingly too that my mom allowed. XD

basically why i like this band is because their songs reflect a lot of our daily mess and problems, and the songs teach us how to handle it. so if u haven't get your copy of album, or you miss the concert, checked their web for further info:

here is the linked to the web and facebook:

http://smzdpy.pigeonhouseproduction.com/

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=74665754819

congratz on the success of this concert 1017 teluk intan.

tickets....

dun misunderstand, i didn't colour it, i am just doing final touch. hahahaha^^

whatever it is written there, i don't understand, cause i am a banana. ^^

brilliant idea to stick it up there.

the committees and helper for the concert, from PBHP. yeepee!

that's the hall fully filled...

some of the singers and musician...

the concert...

section of the backdrop...

and last but not least, i am helping out at the sales department^^ i am selling T-shirt, first-timer too. hehee.

for more photos, refer to smzdpy facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=74665754819

i am really happy to be part of the team, though may be a bit late. and of course, networks of friends expanded. this event, the memories, and the joyful moment shall be remembered.

HOPELESS piece of JUNK!!

2009-09-22T00:15:00.005+08:00

i dunno how to start. i am thinking so many things at the moment. so frust so stressed. i just dunno how. lately i have always been like this. perhaps it had started long ago, yet i did not realized it. stress stress stress. and i have been very negative, surrounded by negative energy. i am hopeless, i am useless, just feel so fed up of myself.

i have been hesitating to write this post too. there is this thinking i have, thought that other ppl may think that i made up my emotion and gain pity and sympathy, (perhaps i did, just that i did not realize it). but i really wanna express everything to someone, or anyone willing to listen and console me, yet i am afraid that i am frusting other. i am scared, i am a coward. yes, i want to be console, but it would be better to keep a fake smile in front of other.

i am just hopeless. all those expectation i made, all those promise i made, are fake. i lied. stpm coming, yet i am not studying well. trial is there, and the results suckz. i vow to study hard, but i can nvr do it. i am just not those typical study guy. i cant sit still facing face to face with these scientific and mathematics books. i am sick of it, this theorem, this theory, that principle, that formulae. i gone crazy. i cant pay attention, i cant focus. perhaps all this is definitely excuses i made, excuses made to make myself feel better. that's why i am useless. others can strive hard, yet i am slacking. i hate myself.

left around 7-8 weeks to stpm, i dunno i can do it or not. teacher say last minute can still achieve 4As. how true is that? i wish i could, but i am giving myself excuses again and again. all those hope on me, those expectation on me, lets just forget about those, for i am hopeless. i have failed you, i have failed my family, i have failed my parents, i have failed my brothers, i have failed my sisters, i have failed my teachers, i have failed my friends. i have let you all down. all those expectation or encouragement on me at times become a stress to me. those are encouragements, but i turn them into stress, how pathetic i am. they say i can, but i say i cant.

i am really scare too. i feel like crying. but why should i cry when i turn myself into this. sounds so pathetic. seeing other strive so hard, i really envy them. i myself can be like them, but i nvr really try to be like them. i can talk all i want, but i nvr really do it. another reason for me to hate myself. i am a piece of junk.

i knw it's not good to condemn ourself. but i cant stand myself anymore. those self improvement books i study all goes into vain. i may offer advice to other, but i can nvr really listen to those advice myself. such a hypocrite i am. i really wanna be those guy who can maintain well balanced lifestyle between studies and entertainment. but it's all in the dream.

perhaps i am not flexible after all. i have taken this journey of science, but yet i kept telling myself, no i cant, i am am art guy, not a science guy, that's why i cant focus and study these theories. should i have been given another chance, perhaps i will not take science at all, or maybe not form 6. but if i would have change all that, i would had alter my life. i may not be involve at all with pbhp. i may not at all knw how pathetic i am.

comes to feelings for girls, i tend to think negative. perhaps that gurl dun like me at all, perhaps she dun wan to talk to me, perhaps i am frusting her, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. and the fact is that i fall for two gurls is destructive. would it be good if from the beginning i dont fall for gurls at the moment and be ony friends, like those cool cool guys in cartoon. day dreaming again. love is complicated. you think that she is so near to you, yet she is actually still so faraway for u to grab. i would really like to have a relationship too, but i am afraid; family, and lack of confident. how nice to have a supporting girlfriend.

i am good for nothing, for all i only know how to talk big. others are progressing, while i am regressing. perhaps, it would be good for you all to hate me too, cause i may drag u down. i lied, i haven keep my promise. i dunno if i can pass stpm either. books as thick as dictionaries, burn all them and drink it. or take those books as my pillow. useless. encourage me not to give up, forget about it, i am in a state of, hmmm, JUNK.

perhaps u may suggest meditating, but seriously, i cant even focus. the mind is just like wild monkey. for a moment, it is here, for a moment it is somewhere else. i just kept thinking a lot of things, major thing, minor thing... or wtever... PARANOID, i may get this soon.

the fire within me is dying. engulfing myself in darkness. again, i have failed everyone.

this post looks messy, sry, i just wrote out wtever come across my mind, and really sry if i offended you all with my wordings or wtever in this post. i am lost, i am stress, i am frustrated. so sry. and sry too for failing you all and fail to keep my promises.

Life is Beautiful.

2009-08-23T09:16:00.006+08:00

Life is certainly beautiful if you decide it to be with your beautiful mind. Just yesterday, i watched this oscar winning movie, 'Life is Beautiful'. This movie portrayed the journey of a Jewish Italian man from courting and marrying a lovely woman till the day he sacrifice himself to save his son. It may sound boring to watched, but this show is certainly touching to me. There are certain time when I felt like dropping tears, and the heart felt touched. Thanks to Miss Kee for introducing me this film.

This man has this particular characteristic that not much people have nowadays. He have this attitude, though abit silly, manage to bring joys, happiness and hopes to others. Despite being in a conflict, he remains optimistic and jovial to the people arounds him, even when he knew he is going to die. His life seems to be no hope, but his life is certainly beautiful. Happiness is not something that can be gain easily, and to be optimistic is one hard thing to achieve. It is this characteristic of his that secure him a wife, a family, a son, and finally saved his son's life.

The plot of the story, if you wish to know more:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Life_Is_Beautiful

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0118799/

but I suggest you to watch the movie to understand the movie.

I really salute to those who can be a person like him, where he can be a support to other. These people are highly demanded by others, i believe. I may be daydreaming, but i really wish to be one of them too, but certainly it is still a long way ahead before i can achieve this state of characteristic. Life may looks unfair to us, but why would we be bothered if we can stay optimistic and jovial. Afterall, to remain optimistic and jovial can lead us to see life from different perspective, that is life is to be enjoyed.

sometimes we just do so much unnecessary things till one day we realize that we have yet to enjoy our life. Soon we ask, "what have I been doing all these years? Have I really enjoy my life? Am i too late to start enjoying my life?" ...and soon we realize that we have even neglect all the things around us, especially family and friends. We may be too occupied with our own demand and attachment till we forget our purpose and principle of life. Well, certainly not everybody will ask these questions, depending how you define your enjoyment.

a person may not be successful in his career, education, or whatever you name it, but successful in his mentallity, spirituallity. You may think his life is terrible, but certainly he is a man enjoying his life. what i trying to say is not that i asking u to neglect your studies or career or anything, but to balance your life. Sometimes, we are just too occupied and affect our balance of life till one day i believe we will regret how foolish are we.

Life is just uncertain. If you are diagnosed with a terminal disease and have a few months to live, what will you do? will you regret for your past? how will you live your final days? Think about it. Life is beautiful, why do we want to damage the beauty. Study, exercise, entertainment, social, career, family, relationship, if you can balance these, you will be a man of success, and a healthy lifestyle. Just do your best in any case. Don't stress yourself just to achieve this state of balanced life, afterall, it takes time to reshape your life.

I got lots more to say (or crap) but i guess it's better to stop now. I would sincerely apologize if my post cause some controversy to you. I just hope that you will enjoy your life and never regret of it. May you be well and happy.

The final 20m of 100m race.

2009-07-11T20:01:00.003+08:00

beginning from 100m, we walk. 50m, we jog. 20m, we start to run. that's our journey to stpm. STPM coming, omg omg.

it's almost mid-july now. trial is one the way, at september. and that means i have approximately 4 months to STPM. honestly, i am getting more worried and scared. i havent been able to cope up with the studies. rank from worst to bad - chemistry > physic > math > general paper. chemistry is so theoractical, with three books. physics is so mathematical, with tonnes of calculations and formulaes and derivatives. maths is so complex, with complicated calculations. general paper is "why are we taking paper 2 for", with those complicated scheme.

i know these probs are actually not the main problem. why not seeing some other ppl complaining. with enthusiasm to start form 6 at first, end up with slacking off is what i am actually facing. slacking leads to drop oup. it's jus as simple as cause and effect. haiz, i had created these problems with my own attitude and mind. i can't blame others. it's all my own fault after all.

honestly, i really find form 6 very tough. i really worried if i have to retake pre-U. i have to stop giving myself excuses. i nid to brush up. i nid to start running already. i been left faraway back. i am so scared, i am so worried. but i knw i have to do my best. i cant fool around anymore. dont make urself regret, small gan.

it may be four months left, but u know u have to do it. u know there is still a chance. never give up halfway. YOU CAN DO IT!

Langkawi Outing... 9th-11th June...

2009-06-20T15:30:00.001+08:00

finally, i have the time to write this post. Langkawi Geopark Island, that's the so called new name for Langkawi. it was Sunday night when my bro suddenly ask me whether wanna join big sis aka hoay2, 2nd sis aka hoay yee, 4th sis aka siew ling and my bro to a 3d2n trip to langkawi from tuesday to thursday. the chance is there, so y not, despite skipping another 2 classes of tuition again, kekeke.

this trip with my siblings is really one of those that i will never forget. i will cherish all the moments there. and i felt a sense of warm feeling with them, and it is my happiness to be part of the family. hahaha. well, i shall now let the photos to do the talkings. hahaha.

we started our journey early in the morning, and we had our breakfast at ipoh. there is a chinese chess board on the table, btw. hahaha.

after a long journey, we had a rest at R&R Gurun, in Kedah. meanwhile, lets eat an apple to keep us healthy, hehee. an apple a day keep the doctors away. orh yea, forgotten to introduce, from left: my bro, siew ling 四姐, hoay yee 二姐, me and hoay2 大姐.

after around 4 1/2 hour ride, we reach Kuala Perlis where we will be taking our ferry to Langkawi.

while dajie was buying the ferry ticket, lets snap some photo. hahaha.

why the ferry belum sampai huh, haiz, bosannya, mari tangkap gambar lagi. hahaha.

finally the ferry arrive, and it took so long for the passenger to get down from the ferry. that make our ferry riding delayed, ish. anyway, lets board the ferry.

this is the act of a cat, lol. we bought these bread to feed the fish in Pulau Payar. at the moment we were discussing about some tour package back earlier, a black cat sneak out and eat one big mouth of the bread.

our super duper small seatings.

family t-shirt...

what to see in the sea, i wonder??

our seat was so small, thus we went to sit in the upper deck. hahaha. upper deck was like almost empty, so who care if add we. hahaha.

that's our huge double decker ferry. hahahaha. move so slow man.

at almost 6 hour journey, we finally rest our feet at Langkawi Geopark. hahaha.

we took the 2pm ferry. the ferry u see in the picture was actually the 230pm ferry which overtook us. lol, look how slow our ferry goes. OMG.

stuffing all our luggage in this lousy iswara we rent. there was no horn nor air cond in this car. apparently, the air con went down the 2nd day, and we realize the car without horn also in the 2nd day. plus this car got no power steering, so makes it harder to drive. and it's a manual car.

our AB Motel. hahaha. where can u get this cheap yet nice motel, juz beside the beach, for RM120 per night. hahaha.

nth much we can do since we arrive Langkawi late afternoon, so lets soak in the sea water. besides, the beach is just located beside our motel, and our beach is not those lousy beach. it's Pantai Cenang, a tourist spot too.

super excited!!

what a beautiful sunset, and the wordings we write on the sand. hahaha. it's written our names.

this is our delicious dinner for our first night. we dunno which restaurant to choose, but follow our instinct and end up in this road side restaurant. hahaha. luckily, the food here is delicious. the best would be the super spicy hot fish introduced by the restaurant owner. other dishes we order is soft shell crab, claypot taufu, steam egg served with mixed vege, and mantis shrimp.

after dinner, we had a little walk around those shops in pantai cenang before hotel hopping to Pelangi Resort to sight seeing. apparently, we were asked to leaved by the security because we were visitors using a private property - the beachside chair we sit not even for 5 seconds. so that's the end of our first day in Langkawi. I went to sleep early, but if i am not wrong, my bro and dajie went out for a walk at the beach. hehee.

2nd day finally arrive, and we had our plan to snorkel in Pulau Payar, about 1 hour journey south from Langkawi. and we start off with our expensive spicy nasi lemak nearby our motel. the tour operator's bus will fetch us at 810am, so we have to hurry. hahahaha.

our pass to Pulau Payar from our tour operator. guess which is my hand, ahahahaha.

that's Langkawi Coral, the building at the far end, a place for u to dive into the ocean without actually diving into it. lol. sort of natural underwaterworld. hahaha. and right next to it was our ferry to bring us here from langkawi. one hour journey. if the pic is bigger, u will notice that the small boat docking to the ferry and the dock are use to transfer us from the ferry to the dock.

welcome to Pulau Payar Marine Park. that's it, a small island with crystal clear water. it cost us RM140 per person for the package to there. from 8am-3pm, lunch included, snorkelling equipments included, transportation included. hahahaha. this was my first time snorkelling, and i really enjoy it.

to lure the fish to u, just throw bread to them, they will rush here like hunger fish. lol

this bird here is interesting, doin some balancing act. well cant really c in this photo, but at that time, it was really doin a balancing act on the cable. hahaha.

this was the only shark that came during shark feeding, how dissapointed.

time's up, we are heading back to Langkawi.

after Pulau Payar, we head towards Tanjung Rhu Beach to enjoy the sunset there. in these compilations of photos, i just wanna show u that we were actually walking towards the middle of the ocean. Due to low tide, a stretch of land/road open upon us as if like in the fantasy. notice how far were we from the coastline... and this road ony at night connect the beach to one of the small island on the sea, but too bad, since we don't have much time, we ony manage to finish 2/3 of the road. because no one is allowed to walk this road after the sun is set due to safety reason.

the building back there is Tanjung Rhu beach resort, a fine class resort. and u can get free kissing scene on the beach. lol.

the sun is setting down. if those mountains weren't there, this sunset would be nicer.

we somehow notice that this is a new way of snapping photo creatively, using the sunglasses as a mirror for us. hahahaha.

our last night dinner at langkawi at Orkid Ria Seafood Restaurant.

and we ordered a steam prawn, garlic broccoli, fried squid and sweet and sour crabs. if i am not wrong, that dinner cost RM120.** lol. hahahaha. once a while ma.

that's a beachside bar.

after dinner, we spent some time picnicking by the beach with candlelights. and too much of free time, lets craft a love.

jellyfish, stay away stay away. apparently, this jellyfish got washed ashore by the waves. sry for ya, but may u rest in peace.

our cost-saving breakfast the next morning, mamak stall.

that's our motel. juz by the beachside. how cool. cheap and livable.

this is Pantai Cenang, stretched over err, i guess is like 2-5km, where our motel is located. soft white sand, not like tanjung rhu, rough sand - feet therapy, lol.

before heading to shop for chocolate, lets stop by the famous Awana Porto Malai. unfortunately, no Cruise docked at that particular week. how sad.

while shopping for chocolate, we notice this huge tempting lollipop. ahahaha.

last but not least, come to langkawi and of course u must take a photo at Dataran Lang, langkawi's landmark. the 5 hero and heroin of Langkawi. lol

fly high, mighty eagle. ooops, are u able to fly??

finally, we got lost in kedah on our journey home. somehow, we got to this riverside restaurant in Kuala Kedah, and have our stomach filled. after some jalan-jalan, we finally found our way home.

so that's is all on my 3 day adventure. hahahaha. lets have another siblings outing again soon, perhaps when we all were around together, hopefully with every siblings in (hoay2, hoay yee, kai chur, siew ling, jane, my bro, me, yin bin, terk wah), n of course not forgetting our maid, miss maria. hahahaha.

One Day Family Trip

2009-06-08T11:10:00.006+08:00

it was 10am, and my mom suddenly woke me up. i was blurred when she asked: "how about going to IKEA?". it's fine with me. so she seek my bro and dad, and eventually all agreed to go. wow, such a sudden plan. everybody finish the breakfast, take bath, make up, prepare everything and off we go at 11am.

IKEA is located in Mutiara Damansara, and it actually took around 2 hours journey fr teluk intan to there. that was fast, approximately the time for u to go ipoh. so, next time, instead of goin to ipoh, why not go there, because there are other shopping complex like Ikano, and The Curve there, only u have to spend more money on toll bills, hahahaha. and thx to my bro who knows the way to reach there, that had actualli save us some time from getting lost. hahahahaha.

sure do have a sea of people there, coz it's sunday, and where else to go other than loitering and have some family time, right. sadly i forgotten to bring camera along, if not i may have snap some photos to show you all. hahahaha. after IKEA was a short shopping at Padini Concept Store and Popular Bookstore. I wanna buy tie at first, but no tie looks nice, so cancel the plan. and i got myself a reader digest and this book from Popular:

we head home by around 5 something and had our dinner at ti again in Han Seng Restaurant. hahahaha. since i had an invitation to my sch scout camp campfire, so i straight went there without taking a bath first, hahaha. weee, enjoying seeing some juniors and those ex-seniors around - ah leong, yaw shen, jin hao, ah chuan, hui leng, pangyi, yayung, ying zhee, wei yi, ying hui, chu ying, siew yun. sang some songs till yday night, my voice is almost lost and today when i wake up, my voice changed. sobsob. hahahaha.

it's been awhile since my family had an outing together, and i am happy yesterday we had it. looking forward to more of it. orh yeah. hahahaha.

Updates and 佛青生活营2009 (Chinese DYC 09)

2009-06-06T23:11:00.004+08:00

well, it's been awhile i sleep in my blogspot. haha. because, nth much have happened since the last event, so basically my life was juz normal routine of goin sch, tuition, eat, sleep, exam, untillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll................. thursday 28th May 2009. that night, i was alone in my house when suddenly i had a task to do. i need to catch a BATMAN out of my house. lol. damn irritating bat, flying so fast till i need to use my tennis racquet to immobilize him, so sry. don't worry, i jus use it to stop him from flying, not to injured him. hahahahahah. i admit i was a little afraid, afterall, this was my first experience. after catching him using a glove, batman finally found his freedom back to the open air.

holiday finally approach, and i celebrate it on friday night itself. i finally have the chance to visit our teluk intan new cinema aka Big Cinemas. lol. my friends - julianna, evelyn, lulu - and i watch night at the museum 2. it is hillarious, u gotta watch it. all history came to life. there were super huge abraham lincoln, cutie love angels, big big balloon puppy, huge octopus, and of course not to forget the cute little octavius and cowboy. hahahaha. that night, i have to drive my dad's pajero, since it's the only car left. phew, luckily i manage that big car.

saturday, from morning till afternoon, i settle myself in my junior scout district camp. lucky got siew woon and sxe min went together with me, if not i am bored to death. only 23 participant, and only three school. what a chilling atmosphere. haiz, scout goin down soon. the weather is so hot that i eventually get darker, sobsob. i am sry too coz unable to help out cleaning up PBHP for the coming camp coz i attended to my junior scout camp.

then, at night, suppose i have a date, erhm, jk, i mean i have decided to go out with xia and her siblings, but later on cancel it due to inappropriateness to interrupt their siblings outing. hahahaha. so plan B take place, that is goin to my hungry jie (2nd sis) house, and met up with my dajie (big sis), forth sis and my big bro. we went to visit giant together and eat char koay teow b4 leaving home. hahahaha. giant was nth much different like TF but they had a btr management on the smell problem. and i notice teluk intaner loves to walk super slow and congest the whole traffic inside giant. lol.

finally, 佛青生活营2009 (Chinese DYC 09) began on the 1st of June. i regretted for not being a committee, but glad that i can still be a helper. thanks to the organising committee for allowing me to be part of the camp, i really appreciate it. and thanks too for giving me a camp booklet, a camp t-shirt, and most importantly treat me like a member of the camp.

this year camp theme board, very nicely decorated indeed. applause to those involve in it.

nth much i can help other than in kitchen. besides, kitchen department lack of guys member to do the harsh work, such as carrying big pot of rice. hahahahaha. not much i can help in the kitchen, but i hope i more or less help to reduce their works.

my colleague this time is yaw shen aka sam boy (head), jia li, jiek ying aka jia yi, yin shia, xiao wen, ying hui, bee sim, and terk wah

nice working with u all in the kitchen, and thx for all your hardworks. this year kitchen department was really great, and the progress in the kitchen is very effective. a big applause to you all.

this year camp was really great if not best. the overall statistic of the feedback from both committees and participants was rated mostly 5/5 and 4/5. most of the games and activities were fresh and new, like detective, pirate, etc etc. thx to all those seniors who generate these fresh ideas. they bring it back from faraway back to ti. that's what make this camp a total different from previous camp, something new and something fresh, and nvr dull. this camp was a great success, and i am glad i did come and be part of it.

the organising committees and our camp two Reverent.

miss kee introduce me to an album - 生命中的朋友 s.m.z.d.p.y -. the songs are nice and soothing and really suitable for us students to listen. because i think those songs got relate to our teenagers. thx miss kee for introducing me to this album. i love the songs very much. it's really relaxing to listen.

this is the CD front and back cover

well, my final updates for my holiday as to now was this camp last feedback meeting among the committees today. start from 3pm, ended at around 7pm, before heading to have our celebration dinner at Han Seng Restaurant. weeeee. btw, for your information, i skipped two tuitions and two additional classes for that particular holiday week, kekekeke.

can u read those words??

the road traffic light and zebra crossing (their colour of their cloth)

the black t-shirt group

the white t-shirt group

yaw shen, future camp leader... hehee

final posting with the nicely decorated board today

bee sim and my bro and me

the roman, lol...

yin shia and me

my forth sis, 2nd sis and miss kee.

that's all for now. i always feel happy to be with my PBHP friends and families. somehow, i feel warm and a sense of caring there. and i had extended my network of friends. wish to work with you all again, and i think when i reach Uni, i may enroll myself in those Uni Buddhist Society. hahahaha.

Wesak Day 2009

2009-05-10T18:52:00.002+08:00

this year was my first official helping for Wesak Day in PBHP. previously, i did help, but i did not register my name. hahaha. nth much did i able to help, but i am happy and satisfied that i am able to contribute a little at least. mainly i help out at the PA system, but at times, i do hang ard to see if i could help in anything, heehee. Well, this time as usual i no longer feel like a stranger being in pbhp, as my network of friends had extended to there, and pbhp is like second home, hahaha. there is almost every facilities u need at home.

this year response was not as good as previous years, based on my observation, including night. one of the factors may due to the clash of the Indian's celebration and our Chinese's Wesak Day. last time, pbhp used to be crowded and busy like a market even before the Dana Lunch, but this year, it's not as merry as it used to be, but still merry enough. hahahaha. i am glad to meet some of my pbhp friends met along the way since i involved in pbhp. sadly, hoay2 dajie, hoayyee erjie, kaichur sanjie, my brother dage can't make it to celebrate wesak day in pbhp, as they all are busy with something else.

no photos to upload nor have me inside any of the photos, ahahahaha. well, that's all i would like to say about my celebration for Wesak Day 2009, and despite being a little late, Happy Wesak Day to everybody.

May you be free from enmity and danger,

May you be free from mental sufferings,

May you be free from physical sufferings,

May you take care of yourself happily.

Korean Singers...

2009-04-03T20:53:00.010+08:00

Greetings to everybody.

Just yesterday, that is one attractive annual event held in Wesley Methodist Church Teluk Intan. Guess what, yeap, the Korean singers are back. this is the fourth year they performing here in our hometown, weee. What is their name, so sry because i do not know, but they are handsome and pretty orh. hahahaha.

that's the group, all the way from korea to malaysia.

i got this info about the event through Mrs Grace Ho, our beloved choir teacher. Well, this year I can only manage to ask some of my friends to join along, as some are not around and some are busy. hahahaha. nvm, those who miss it may watch them again next year, hopefully.

their singing is nice if not best, but to me, they are just like artistes. i definitely admire them singing non-stop for at least one hour. wondering don't they need to refresh their throat?? hahaha. great singing great singing.

the two korean beauty, so cute, so kawaii. hahahaha. what i am holding is actually a cd of the songs sang by them, this year edition if not last year i guess, hahaha. it's just cost RM20 and if i am not wrong, the profit goes to charity or welfare, whichever is it. lol, no care.

the handsome guy, third time seeing him since 2006

another handsome guy, but first time seeing him. his singing, wow, superb, can reach very high note, and his dancing not bad either. he too played keyboard. below is a photo of him singing winter sonata, nice.

later half time of the event, it was the preach from Pastor Daniel Kim. Whoa, he is really fit just by judging his size. well, he was born in Korea, stay in Japan and study in some English School for some time, then went to America and graduate from a military school (that's how he got his fitness i assume) and finally now staying in China. Pastor Daniel Kim was a wonderful pastor. his preach was interesting and attracting. He present the preach with a phrase from the Bible: Roman 3:23-24 (new international version) -->

²³for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, ²⁴and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.

well, i am not sure is it the verse suppose from new international version, because as you all know, there are some slight different version of Bible, but this is the best i can find through online that looks similar to what i remembered, so i am sry if it is wrong. He specify three way of redemption for the sinned we have done, that is Forgiveness; Healing; Hope. What he had preached i find it really true and useful.

this is Pastor Daniel Kim, wonderful Pastor. His english is superb, and fluent. wish my english is just like his.

later on after the preach is singing session again, a few more songs from the Korean. and of course before we went back, photo session!!

here i would like to add-on something. I may not have a religion at this moment, but pls dont mistake me for not believing in the existence of God. I do believe in God. I believe the existence of God, and i believe in the sinned or karma as stated by respective religion. In fact, all religion talks about it in their respective term, and all religion lead and guide us to a better human being. i may had went to church, i may had went to buddhist association, and i respect both religion. The Bible and The Dhamma, both is a good teaching for us. for now, i will remain as a free-thinker, and i will always believe in the existence of God. ^^v

17th Children Camp - 菩萨的孩子

2009-03-19T17:03:00.013+08:00

17th Children Camp's board of committees!!

so, 17th children camp, from 15th to 18th Mac had over. felt abit heavy hearted to let it over. i am glad that i did become helper for the camp after all. there are some of those old faces i recognize in that camp, cheerfully reunite with them to work for this camp.

i did not become part of committees at first due to some circumstances, but decided to become helper, to occupy my holiday and of course to meet with my PBHP friends and families. Felt so uneasy if i dont attend this camp. ahahaha. thanks to all the committees who allow me to help at the camp, despite i cant contribute alot. i did not overnight there, but go there in the morning, and back in the night.

i help in the kitchen, together with all these familiar faces - pei ping as head of kitchen department; yaw shen; miss kee aka aunty kooi ling; and some others (sry, i don't knw your names). working in kitchen is the first time for me. I don't really know what i can help at first, but somehow i manage to help a little. ahahaha. but working in kitchen is fun, despite dealing with garbages at times, ahahaha. cutting and chopping ingredients and fruits, washing all the kitchenwares, wiping and arrange all the kitchenwares, wipe tables, serve food and drinks, prepare breakfast, lunch, dinner and refreshments, etc etc are some of the kitchen's department routine. ahahaha.

the honorable kitchen department, erhm.

through this camp, i am glad that i get to extend my network of friends, mostly younger. one things i felt comfortable with all my PBHP friends and families is that we all mix together well despite age gap and also there isn't any pressure around. everybodies happy, cheerful and joyful. it's just like sort of gatherings. . . . . . i don't really know how to explain the atmosphere, i just felt happy, hehee, especially in camp like these. i still rmb being a stranger at first when i involved myself with pbhp last year, hahaha, but now at least i get to know some of them too. i guess now i understand a little how my bro felt too last time when he involve in pbhp.

thanks to bee sim for giving me a free camp T-shirt and also thanks to gin bing for giving me a gift. i appreciate it alot.

the gift by gin bing to all the committees and helpers. made from bamboo and painted various colours, mine is green. really creative and artistic.

well, fun time do end very fast, isn't it. wish that the camp last longer too, ahahaha. it was so boring at home, despite i should be studying for my stpm. ahahahaha. i prefer to keep myself occupy rather than studying, lol. hahahaha. so long for now, perhaps i will be helping again in the coming chinese DYC camp. ^^v btw, i don't have any camera with me at the moment, so i did not manage to snap photos with frens there, hahaha.

Silent Depression =(

2009-03-13T13:08:00.006+08:00

The atmosphere may seem to have cooled down. Is that so? Is that really so? Deep inside me, there is still this anger, hatred, pressure and tension that trying to overwhelmed me. Suppressing it have finally lead me to depression. I just feel so depressed lately. I just felt like i had lost part of my happiness.

everyday since that day, i have this trauma in me. the fear to oversocial. whenever i reach my home, the first thing appear in my mind is: 'hmm, will my mom scold me for another problem'. I wanna mix with them, but i limited myself, as though something bad may happen again, because most of my friends in school now are female. my friends bday party, i did nt attend too cause the celebrated one is female. this is just not me, not my style, not my personality.

It is as if i am now trying to live the way my mom wants me to be, not the way i want. it is a burden to me, a pressure to suppress my own will. i am 19, and i want some freedom. i do not want to be caged. sometimes, i guess it is better to sacrifice my own happiness for the sake of others, especially now it involves my mom. i would really like to be rebellious, but i cant. i had this another fear, that is this fear of the day when my parents no longer around, to be honestly. i do not want to be a bad child to them, i wanna live to their expectation, because parents are one of the most honorable individuals to us. because of this too, i always do things with fear (yet another fear), fear to make my parents worry, sad or angry.

i dare not even disobey my mom's instruction, no matter how it goes against my will. i wanna disobey it, but i really cant do it. There is these reasons why i mix with juniors. it is perhaps they are more open minded, also perhaps we share something in common, and i am happy with them witout peer pressure. my mom inpose a rule to restrict me from mixing with them, because she thought that when a senior mix with juniors (especially girl), the people would think that a senior is trying to chase a junior. 95% RIDICULOUS i would say. it is already year 2009. come on, move ahead.

yesterday, i asked my mom whether i may go to my scout junior of juniors' camp right after school, havent even mention that i wanna fetch another two female scout junior. She straight away say, 'what for?'. Upon agreeing reluctantly, she say, 'don't create some big problem again, in other words the crisis happened previously or maybe just to keep her face'. hearing that when i about to ask permission to fetch two female junior, i cancelled my plan to go already, cause how am i goin to fetch the two female junior i mention earlier. besides, my emotion is disturbed, so what for goin with a bad mood. afterall, if wanna go, it is better to go happily.

my mom too had refrain me from car pooling. it's like WHAT!! i am very honored and proud to be driver. it's may sounds funny, but that's my way. becoming driver holds the responsibility of the passenger, to make sure their safety and back in one piece. besides, i love becoming driver because it's like transporter, and also my passion for cars. but nw it's like i always drive alone, no longer can fetch my friends around. it's so lonely to be alone in the car.

is that really a reputation is so important compare to family. i feel that the way my mom treating me now is to keep up her reputation among her friends, this is just how i feel, through the way she scold me and the way she speak and the words she use. have she ever consider my feelings. i would live up to my part for her, but is she willing to live up to her part for me. do she love me? I don't know anything, i just don't know. but wic parents would not love for their children, is what i always tell myself.

in my mind i always daydream about love relationship, i admit it. why because sometimes i felt that i get love from lover. of course it is just fantasy, not in reality yet. syiok sendiri in another word. the passion of having a lover, the enthusiasm of enjoying the moment with your lover, the happiness of maintaining relationship with them from school to marriage. it's may sounds funny or ridiculous, but how i wish i have a lovely relationship, without argument or disagreement. but nw isnt the time to start, so i will keep that to my daydream.

studying is really important, that i know. When it comes to science, i try hard to study it, but i really find it difficult for me to understand it. afterall, it's stpm, and i also want a good result, who wouldn't. it's so pressuring studying something without the passion for it. forcing myself to rmb it is really suffering. what to do, i will end the path i taken. i knw i have to work harder to study, work harder to rmb all these science theories, terminologies, formulaes, concepts, and principles.

it may as well someday when i am diagnosed with some psychology problems myself, perhaps in the soon to come future. the symptoms may be already there, but i am still fine now. ahaha. i am still normal, yet to reach crictical level. do we always have to put others interest above us, so that they are happy? is it stupid?

i guess what i have written here is all very selfish, for the sake of my own happiness, not my parents. as a child, it's our duty to make the latter happy. but i guess i am just too selfish to have written all these things out. the depression inside me shall stay on, perhaps. keeping a smile with friends, swallow all the depression silently with family.

Family and Friends...

2009-02-13T18:21:00.003+08:00

Regarding my previous post, I am in a dilemma, at the same time in a state of mental breakdown. I just wanna add in a few more things.

I know exactly education is very important nowadays, and I know my parents care for me, to think for me about my future. It's not that I will not study nor pursue a good grade. Who would want to aim for a terrible result. I know they are worried about my future... but...

But, I would really wish that both mom and dad, please understand me a little bit more, that I feel comfortable and prefer to mix around with girls; also trust me that I will do my best for my academics and not wasting time on relationship. It's not as if I don't understand the importance of good results, I know it and that's why I aim for CGPA 3.8.

I do not want to hurt you all, neither I wish that you hurt me. Because both of you are my parents, I have always try my best to be a good son, I keep all the sorrow with me, I obey your instruction, I try not to anger you. This time, this incident, I am sorry but I can't stand any longer, you inflicted some pain into my heart, for you are unwilling to trust me and unwilling to understand me.

I know your love to me, and I love you too. Family always come first, but I am sorry to tell you that my friends are like my family too, because they give me a sense of happiness and peace.

Mom and Dad,

May you please understand me a little bit more, understand my nature, understand my personality, understand my way of doing, also understand my FEELINGS.

May you please trust me that I am innocent, trust me that I never involve in relationship, trust me that I am old enough to think, trust me that I know education and good results are important, trust me that I know how to balance my time for study.

Mom, Dad, love you all. I know you care for me. I will sort out some solution which is best for everyone.

In a State of MENTAL BREAKDOWN!!!

2009-02-12T19:38:00.001+08:00

Just recently, I got a lecture from mom, regarding my social life. Some lady in the market phone her and told her that I am chasing a girl. It is just a gossip. I can swear to God that I did not do that, maybe I treated her a bit better, but I honestly not chasing her. That was just lecturing from mom.

The problem got worse when a few more ladies continue the gossip with more additional stories such as went out dating with that girl, which I did not do at all. Just yesterday I had a fight with mom, regarding this problem.

I honestly has the tendency to mix with girls, more frequently than boys, that's my personality. I am feeling happy to have all my friends with me, at least they are the people where I can share all my stress and feelings, a sense of happiness I have there. Even if I fall for someone, it doesn't mean I will chase her. I know when it is the right time to involve in relationship and the right time to focus on study, and the latter one is my priority, I am clear about it.

Now, mom scolded me, banned me from mixing with my friends, banned me from car pooling, even said all my friends are not friends. I do mix with girls, but I honestly never involved myself in relationship, neither chasing nor dating. I had tried to explain, tried to ask her believe me, tried to ask her to understand me, but it is no use. Rather than trusting her own son, she trust her friends and the gossip. Now the worst is dad too believe mom.

I can't stand any longer... Family are important to me, but my friends are equally important to me. I do not wish for more, I only want them to trust me that I have the discipline to differentiate which is important, and also to understand me a little bit more. I am already tired of listening to both of them complaining about each other, already sick of my unhappy and disharmony parents. At least friends is the place where I can find peace and happiness. Now everything is upside down. I am very frustrated now, plus a little disappointment when mom say she wanna take care of her pride.

I am really in a state of mental breakdown, not even feeling to study at all, and in a state of dilemma, between family and friends. I got no sense of direction now, life's so miserable.

Thought of running away from home, or perhaps fall coma forever to stay in my dreamland.

Happy Moo MOO Year!!!

2009-02-01T23:24:00.004+08:00

CNY card design by myself, i am satisfy with my creativity despite what you all think about it, ahahahahaha.

"Happy CNY"; "Gong Xi Fa Cai"; "Happy Ox Year"; all the CNY atmosphere was just everywhere back then from perhaps 23rd of January. Now, the atmosphere is fading away, CNY has reached day 7, and goin to over soon. Everybody reluctantly goin back to their normal hectic life -- working; studying. Did you enjoy the festive season? 23rd January, 1210pm, school bell rang, and mark the beginning of my festive holiday, weee. Well, since I am abit lazy to write, so I will share with u photos to describe my CNY.

At Penang 25th-26th Jan:

That's me and my bro, and my cousins enjoying our reunion dinner at grdma house in Penang. We had our usual annual steamboat, lol.

This year, my Australia cousins came back to celebrate with us. Those guys other than my bro and me are them. hahaha.

At Lip Yong's open house, night of 26th Jan:

This was during the 1st night of CNY. Lip Yong held his annual open house and we all were invited to his house. Can be consider as friends gathering as well. ahahaha.

that's me and julianna, ahahaha, she is pretty, isn't she.

this is hui peng, another pretty gurl, ahahaha.

The 4 mafia is back, two white two red... Ahahaha... From left, Shawn, Kumar, me and Jeya.

27th Jan:
Of course, we visited my maternal grdma in Kampar. We left early in the afternoon bcoz my uncles and aunties are coming down to my home late afternoon. ahahaha.
**(apparently, no photo taken when we went to visit my maternal grdma in Kampar)

This is yee sang, bought from kampar.

well, today was really fun. My home had become merrier after for how long. My third, fourth and fifth uncle came to visit us. So there is four family in my house that day. They overnight at my house for one night. Hehee, so happy to see my house merry for once.

for the first time ever, I had McDonald for my CNY dinner, lol. Since most of the restaurant is fully booked, we guess we are too lazee to search for another vacant restaurant. ahahaha.

that night, we brought our cousins along to our friend, siew ling's house for gathering. Ahahaha. So that makes it 4 Gans in that gathering. hehee.

28th Jan:
Today is the day when my house will become silent again, my relatives are leaving back. But, thx for coming and making my parents happy. hahahaha. On this night too, I went to Julianna's house with friends. Wow, i learnt to play "nami" (however it is spelled), but i nvr won once, so sad. No photos taken today, sad sad.

29th Jan, trip to Sg Tiang and pay a visit to Grace Ho, our choir teacher:

Three cars (merz - lulu, perdana - wei khong, and myvi - mine), 14 members (supposedly 15, but one cancel last minute). We snapping some photos beside the so called beach. ahahaha. Sg Tiang is actually a fishing village, and so it is located beside the sea. Went there to visit our newly made friends from there who currently enroll in form 6 in our sch.

this, hahaha, is my wantan mee i had at sg tiang, not that special, but slightly different from the wantan mee we usually had in teluk intan. notice the shrimp, instead of wantan. ahahahaha. orh yea, my plate of wantan mee apparently is larger than the other plates my friends order, dunno why, perhaps i am handsome, so the boss give me more, lol, jkjk, hahahaha.

xia and me. that's my Myvi. I was actually also abit surprised that my parents really allow me to drive to sg tiang, despite being a new driver. ard 1 hour drive to here from teluk intan, if you drive at average 70kmph.

at night, all of a sudden, I decided to pay a visit to our beloved choir teacher, Mrs Ho. Due to some circumstances, only this few came along. there is other three who are not in the photos, because they went back earlier. clockwise from back, siew woon, peai xhin, sxe min, hui peng, me, quah, jonathan, pei wen, Mrs Ho, and my bro.

30th Jan:
Pai nian pai nian pai nian (visit visit visit) from one house to one house, beginning with --
weng lam --> mine --> yanyan --> miss kee --> quah --> pei wen --> yeet chien --> guo sheng --> shun yann --> bee leng --> peik hong.
whole process started 11am, ended 8pm. kakakaka.
my camera is on rest, so no photo la. ahahahaha.

31st Jan:
went to hui peng's house, and had dinner at McDonald, AGAIN!! hahahahaha. at night, i followed my bro to pay a visit to our super teacher, Mr Chan Chai Hock and math teacher, Pn Teh Lee Lean. I was the listener, and they do the talking. ahahahaha. there is session where we critic my school policy and admin, lol. ahahahaha. so syiok.

1st Feb:
sent my bro back to UKM, went to aunt's house at Subang, and went to uncle's house at Klang Valley.

So, that's how I enjoy my CNY. I am satisfied with it. Play time over, time to refocus back onto studies, targetting CGPA 3.8 for my STPM. I won't promise anything, but I will definitely do my best and strive hard to score it. Ganbatte Kudasai everybody.

新年快乐，身体健康，万事如意，学业进步，恭喜发财，哈哈哈。

WEEEEEEEEEE..... I am satisfy with my 2009 Chinese New Year!!

Will I Survive 2009?

2009-01-04T20:52:00.009+08:00

It's rather an absurd question to ask, will I survive year 2009. Erhm, what I meant here isn't related to life or death, but is whether I can survive through the challenges ahead in year 2009, especially the big challenge ahead in November, i.e. STPM. It seems so far ahead yet it is actually very close. Time don't waits. The moment you realize it, you are already at the end of the year 2009.

Well, to think it positively, yes, I can survive through it, and in fact everybody can. Who wouldn't. Only variable is the end result based on every act we all choose to do upon the obstacles ahead. It may be good, it may be bad, or it may be neutral. But, I would rather say that whatever the end results it is, it depend on ourselves to interpret it, to accept or reject, to feel happy or to feel depress, to learn from it or not to learn from it. Ourselves play a big role here. Whatever the result is, you can still feel good about it even though it is bad, by thinking the bright side. A bad thing that happens to you may not be that bad after all, if you think the bright side, perhaps something good may happen out of the bad. For example in my case, I felt so terrible when I realize I chose the wrong path of studying form 6, but if I had not study form 6, I wouldn't have involve myself in PBHP and get to know so many new friends and form a 2nd family.

This year is very crucial for me, it will determine my further studies, whether I can enroll myself in degree studies, or restudy pre-U studies. Time management comes in handy for me. I have a rough plan, but whether I successful to carry out the plan, I don't know. The plan is:

1st - wake up early to meditate (wow, can I do it)

2nd - stay back at school until 2pm (better than wasting time at home)

3rd - every weekdays' night, study/homework/revision at PBHP library (conducive environment there)

4th - no computer on weekdays, only during weekends I may use PC (Friday night included as weekend, ahahaha)

5th - participate in some leisure (not specific)

6th - hope that I can do all the above

Ahead, I do not know how many obstacles are waiting for me, neither do I know what the obstacles are except STPM. If I know it, then my life would be very good lor, but at the same time no excitement, ahahahaha. Somehow, I know I can definitely survive through all these waves, storms and strong winds, because I know all my families, all my relatives, all my teachers, all my friends form a strong pillar of supports and encouragements to me. With those, I need not worry I will give up halfway. As though I am walking along in a dark tunnel, and with the aid of all the flashlights, I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, and walk out of the tunnel.

I am already anxious about my year 2009, and tomorrow sch is reopening. What may lies ahead, perhaps will be something new to me. As already stated, I know I will survive, so do everybody, because everybody have their own pillar of support. Well, that's all for now, gambate to everybody, gambate to my bro, gambate to myself. I have told myself that whatever bad may happen may not be that bad after all, perhaps some unexpected goodness will arise from it. Finally, it all depend on us, to choose the ways we want it to be, and the effect will vary, depending on the choices we make. Cause and Effect!! chao... ^^

Look the bright side small gan, Sun is rising. From the darkness of night, Sun will still arise. That means that there are always hope and solutions for everything. Gambate, don't give up!

010109 Auspicious 2009

2009-01-01T12:55:00.006+08:00

Welcome year 2009 to our civilization. Year 2008 had just over. Are you satisfied with your year 2008? I am, satisfied with the sweet moments I had and the social life I developed, but dissatisfied with my studies. Let's not talk about it. I welcome 2009 at my friends house, apparently. It's just same as Christmas, there isn't any New Year atmosphere. Not my friends fault, not anybody fault, is just that these celebration is not that popular in Teluk Intan. We all hang out from 8pm until 1am, three different places - Poly Wata, McD and Lip Yong's house. At least I welcome year 2009 with friends, instead of lonely welcome, ahahahaha.

Year 2009, perhaps it will be another tough year for me to go through, but hopefully not. The greatest challenge I foresee in 2009 is my STPM examinations. It is a wrong choice for me to choose Physic-Chem to study, but the choices now is to strive hard to score well or just flunk it, of course I have to select the former choice. Well, one year will pass very fast, strive hard small gan, do your best. Failing to score well despite hard work is fine, successful to score well despite no effort is miracle.

My resolution for year 2009, hmmm, apparently I really never think of it. There are a lot of items that I want, that I always dream of, but I think I would put it aside first. Instead, I should focus to study hard and mindfully to achieve distinction for my STPM and also focus to foster a closer relationship with my families. Perhaps I would also want to improve myself, especially in my confidence, my English, and most important, HAPPINESS. I want to be a better person, a cheerful and jovial person, as well as being a mindful and wise man. My brother and my friends would be a good example for me.

Well, there is nothing much for me to crap here, all I hope for is an auspicious 2009 for everybody. There may be sorrow, but that is part of life process. Know how to manage it and you are on ur way to happiness. Challenges are always there, it is only depend on us how to tackle it, whether you go the positive way (nvr give up, but continue to find for solutions) or you go the negative way (give up, and let the problems be there). If you give up upon all the challenges, be ready to be a failure. If you do your best to tackle all the challenges, welcome success.

To my bro:
I want you to lead a happier life in University, I want to see you smile, and I know you will. Don't stress up, fill ur life with leisure, but don't neglect studies, and I know you already manage it. Gambate orh in your studies. I want to see you being interviewed by National Geographic, or Discovery or Animal Planet, ahahaha.

To everybody (including my Brother and Families):
Whatever sorrow you have in 2008, leave it there. 2009 is a brand new year, cherish all the happiness from the past and in the future, and lead a brand new journey towards success and happiness. Continue pursue your dreams.

Before I finish my post, this is my New Year Salad, made by Hoay Yee, aka my 2nd sister:

tada, sweet sweet salad, scrumptious

2008 Reflection!!!

2008-12-31T00:00:00.004+08:00

Time really flies, if u really notice it. the moment i reflect on the memories, it is as if it happened yesterday. for example when today i was helping my mom doing some cleaning, i thought back the previous cleaning i did as though it happen perhaps days ago. it's already been 18years 118days i living on this earth. the me as today is created by myself, developed by my own "super genius" mind. ahahaha. perhaps if u ask me honestly, i wouldn't love myself 100%. why, because i still see a lot of glitches in myself. anyway, i knw i should be looking the bright side that the me today is a blessing. ahahaha. well, lets cut the crap and do some reflection on 2008.

My 2008 begin in Kedah apparently because I was shorlisted for National Service, undergoing my training at Kem PLKN Merbok in Southern Kedah, nearby Sg Petani. 2 and 1/2 month I spent my time there, of course enjoying myself a lot. Thanks for the chance given to me to undergo this training. I made new friends, experience the living in a different state, being away from my family for a long period for the first time, getting my first ever number 2 haircut, etc. I felt despair the time I received my NS news, but finally I am glad that I did participate in NS.

This is my clique of friends in NS. It's so fun sharing moment together, even with our friend's family during family visiting day. They purposely brought alot of food to share among all the friends. Thanks a lot, really appreciate it.

My best and close friends come pay me a visit during the open day, all the way from Teluk Intan to Kedah. They came along with my family. ahahaha. So glad to see them.

Next event would be Chinese New Year celebration. Well, I was given one week of CNY break from my NS camp. Whoa, the journey back to my hometome took us 7hours of butt and leg aching ride, thanks to the super slow bus we were in, and thanks to the driver who use coastal way instead of the expressway. Well, celebrated CNY in Penang, Kampar and of course, Teluk Intan. Nth much of a difference from the previous years, only the CNY atmosphere has deproved.

Proceed to next event would be my SPM result. Think the dark side, my result is disasterous. Think the bright side, it's not that bad after all. My results, tada:
1103 Bahasa Melayu - 1A
1119 English - 1A (GCE-O - 2A)
1225 Moral Studies - 1A
1249 History - 1A
1449 Mathematics - 1A
3472 Additional Mathematics - 1A
3756 Priciple Account - 1A
4531 Physics - 2A
4541 Chemistry - 3B
4551 Biology - 3B
6355 EST- 3B
So, what you think? I did not expect my Physic and Chem to score that result, I targeted 1A for both that subjects. Haiz. Too bad. Despite getting this results, I had interviews from JPA and UTP, but tada, i failed both. hahaha. Anyway, this all doesn't matter any longer, because I have proceed my life.

Well, this photo is during the speech day of my sch. This are some of my sch mates that score well for SPM 07. hahaha.

Ok, midyear holiday, nth much other than my second trip to BookFest@Malaysia at KL Convention Centre, organised by Popular Bookstore. Buy books at this time, it's really cheap, especially if u have a Popular Membership Card. I bought myself 4 books there, two novels and two self-improvement books, total cost RM124.60 after minus the total discount of RM32.92. You see, it's so cheap. Hopefully I am able to go again next year.

Before the mid year holiday ended, together with my senior and junior, I attended Shiang Yang 219 Kinta Open Scout Troop 8th Anniversary in Bercham, Ipoh. They break the record, the tallest pioneering tower ever built in Malaysia. How tall is it, I forgotten eh, ahahaha. Aside from the tower, there were a lot other activities around for few days. Unfortunately, I only went for one day, but I was happy to see a lot other scouts and girl guides gathered together to enjoy and have fun.

the pioneering tower I mention to u earlier...

my senior and my juniors...

Form six life started soon after. I enroll in Physic-Chem studies. At first I thought I made the right choice, but apparently I am wrong. Science stream isn't the way that I wanna go. It is art stream that my heart want me to go. Nevertheless, the road I chosen, I shall finish it, no use regretting it. Perhaps I will only change my road after my Pre-U. School Annual General Meeting came, and I was elected as the President of Tennis Club and Secretary of the Maths Society, apparently. Then, we all, as elected committees attended a 2-day curricular motivational camp at Kampung Baru, somewhere between Lumut and Sitiawan. A useless boring wasting time camp, in my point of view. Nvm, I take it as a retreat with my friends. ahahaha.

By August, I had started blogspot, finally. My life after the motivational camp, you may read from my 2nd post till the latest post in my blogspot. ahahahaha, but there is some activity I did not write a post on it. So, here are those that I did not post it earlier:

November 14th, we celebrated Lip Yong and Guo Sheng's birthday together at Lip Yong's house. It's a well planned surprise party to them, but failed to execute. haiz. What a miss. We did not expect Lip Yong was away that particular night, and coincidentally the time we arrive his house, he arrive too, that is how the plan was ruin. ahahaha.

the two birthday boys, left is 14th Nov, right is 13th Nov.

Next, I had invitation to my school magazine refreshment at Sutera Indah Restaurant. I am invited in spite of doing nothing for the school magazine, lol. I am in the distribution department, which was abolished this year, apparently. So, I guess I am the helper at the moment. ahahaha. We had steamboat there, weeee.

the package we ordered... tada... steamboat, with fried rice and noodles and chicken.

my table, and i am the photographer, so you can't see me... and I am sitting beside leng lui sxe min, ahahaha.

Lastly are those activities I spent with my 2nd family and friends from PBHP. We had crab eating feast, we bake garlic bread, we went to Ayer Tawar, we went to cycle (no photo), jogging (no photo), yumcha, char koaw teow (no photo), bla bla bla.

yumcha at blue roof there. suppose our plan A was pasar malam, but it rained, so plan B, yumcha, ahahaha.

another yumcha session right before we go to Ayer Tawar.

we went to Ayer Tawar to send hungry sis (er jie) there. she got some function at there. ahahaha. siew ling (si jie) drove us there.

crab feasting at poh loong restaurant.

family photo after the crab feasting.

weee, we made garlic bread at si jie house. yumyum. i cooked the campbell mushroom soup. hehee.

That's how I spent my 2008. Interesting as I describe it. I may grumble for studying form 6, but if I really think the bright side, I wouldn't have known my 2nd family and new friends from PBHP. What I trying to say here is despite something bad happen, it may not be that bad after all. ahahaha. Anyway, goodbye 2008, 2009 I am coming. I am looking forward for what may waiting for me ahead in 2009. chao...

Surpriseeeeee.........Siew Ling!!!

2008-12-30T00:46:00.001+08:00

1030pm, everybody should be cooling down and begin to take a rest and sleep. is that so? well this is just a bad assumption. anyway, at this particular time ard 1030pm on 29th Dec 2008, some of us gathered and approach siew ling house stealthily. we parked our car slightly far away, hide behind the trees and hoay2 alone call out siew ling. She came out curiously as why suddenly hoay2 pay a visit late at night.

chatted awhile and... "happy birthday to u, happy birthday to u, happy birthday to siew ling, happy birthday to you". while the song is singing, we crawl out from our hiding and present her with a small cute birthday cake. Surpriseeeeeeee........Happy Belated Birthday to You. Since it's quite late, we ony spend some time at her house chit chatting and photo snapping session b4 leaving home at ard 1145pm.

we enjoying our pop corn, bought from GSC... since it is lao fong when we wanna eat it, we heat it up again in the owen. hahaha. apparently, instead of making it pok pok choi, some popcorn is chao ta (burned) ody. ahahaha.

hungry jie and hungry ge finishing the last remaining bit of pop corns.

group photo session.

gong xi fa cai... despite CNY is one month ahead, ahahaha...

too ridiculous to snap photo behind the curtain, lol. ahahaha.

Merry Christmas 2008 !!!

2008-12-28T21:27:00.015+08:00

Christmas isn't like Christmas in Teluk Intan. It just don't have the atmosphere, Xmas atmosphere in Teluk Intan. Compare to big cities like Penang or KL, penangites and KL-rians leave the house, join with others in a crowd, and celebrate it joyfully and happily. Teluk Intan, hahaha, a place where they don't celebrate Xmas merrily.

Anyway, this atmosphere doesn't break my friends and mine spirit from celebrating xmas. On xmas eve itself, apparently I went out for a yumcha session with my friends. Glad to see my so called "girlfriend" that night, hahahaha. She is not my girlfriend, just at times we had fun of it. hahahaha. We had our yumcha session at, guess where???... at... at... at Tea Corner. There is xmas decorations there, but the xmas atmosphere wasn't there, why huh?? Dunno... hahaha... i drink two cup of coffee there, one cappucino and one mocha, lol, both hot to soot my throat. hahaha. Since the atmosphere wasn't there, we did not waited for the countdown, instead we went home by 11**pm. hahahaha.

Xmas that day itself i am invited to both xmas lunch and xmas dinner. i had my xmas lunch at my Chindian friend house. guess u knw who. lets welcome our chindian, Shawn Paul... weeee... he invited us to his house at UP for the lunch, sadly ony few of us attend, but nvm, we still proceed with the lunch despite little people. hahaha. that was my first time sight seeing Shawn's new double storey bungalow, erhm. hahahaha. the architecture and design of old english style really brings warm feeling to xmas, as though we celebrating it at perhaps, england, without snow. hahaha. we hang out at his house til err 5** pm, lol. we chat, we play CS, PSP, TV, bla bla bla, except no present, sobsob.

at night, my xmas dinner with PBHP family. two round, first round at Poh Loong Restaurant, second round at McDonald. Why is that so is because there is sudden change of plan. Suppose we ony had it at Poh Loong Restaurant, together with a huge event right after our dinner, but it seems that we are like u know disrupting the business in the restaurant because we were sitting there awhile, chit chat doin nth. so after our dinner, we change our plan and carry out our huge event at McDonald. hahaha. tada, this is the food we enjoy at Poh Loong Restaurant:

expensive fish in assam, lol

err, some kind of prawn i guess, i knw wut it call in chinese, but not english. hahaha. expensive too.

vegetables, err, spinach if i'm not wrong, hehee.

tofu, special tofu poh loong style...

thai style chicken...

the total cost of all this food is erhm, <>, ....... RM...... RM......, guess.... RM.... we will be right back after a short comercial break. LOL. we are now back. hahaha. it cost RM213, wow, super expensive man. nvm, once a year, forever happiness. hahaha.

Our huge event i mention earlier was actually to celebrate siew ling's birthday. the time we reached McDonald, it's quite packed, both the sitting and the parking. we had 4 cars, and three slot of parking available, so this is how we park two car together:

this is how we double park our Myvi. hahaha. incredible ler... hahahahaha...

we celebrated siew ling's birthday earlier despite her birthday is yet to arrive, because most of us will be departing back to our respective high school and pre-U and Universities soon. So tada, our surprise birthday celebration for siew ling. Dunno whether she got a surprise or not. ahahaha.

the birthday cake... what is it named, i dunno... hahaha

the birthday gurl is the gurl wearing green stripe t-shirt.

present exhanging session for xmas... weee... each of us are to prepare a present, then we gather the present, and we draw lots to see who receive whose presents. hahahaha. i got a cup from bee xuan, and my present ferrero rocher and an orange plushie key chain is given to my sister aka gucci aka kaichur. hahahaha.

after present exchanging, we had a group photo we our respective presents... tada...

my 2nd family, say merry christmas....

so that's all on how i celebrated xmas this year... interesting, or not... hmmm, i guess, the important thing is i had the chance to share sweet moment with my friends... that is what count most important to me. hahahaha

20-22nd Dec 2008 Metta Camp. . .

2008-12-26T16:32:00.014+08:00

right from the beginning, i hesitated to join this camp. i thought, meditation camp, will it suit me, since i can sit still for long. then if it is conducted in mandarin, will i understand? all this thoughts playing in my mind till my friends and teachers finally convinced me to participate in this camp. wow, apparently, i enjoyed this camp, despite all the thoughts i had earlier, hahaha, lol.

small amount huh, yea, ony this small amount, the committees and participants. Sitting fr left, sis barbara, sis poh, bro wong, bro ooi, bro jerry and sis hea. bro wong is the conductor of the camp, he is fun to mix with despite age gap. sis poh, i assume she kind of a happy person, bcoz she kept smiling all the time. sis barbara, still so healthy. bro jerry, our chef, and our joker here. food he cook is nice and things he talk is hilarious and of course, he had alot of experience. wanna learn cooking, find him, he will sure intrigue ur passion. bro ooi, our cameraman, also our dhamma teacher. well, i am really impressed with his knwledge and experiences.

the camp is conducted in simple english-mandarin, thank Buddha. i understand most of the slot in these camp, although smtimes i may not knw certain mandarin words o phrase. hahahaha. metta camp, meditation camp. but add-on with some self-improvement session to guide us be a btr person. hahaha. i honestly doubt myself whether i can meditate or not, perhaps sitting still is already a prob for me. Apparently, i CAN sit still for as long as 30minutes during the camp, but to concentrate fully during meditate, i havent achieve that. hehee. i still rmb there is one time during meditating, i am bitten by a mosquito. Well, no movement, so i am enjoying my sensation of being bitten by a mosquito, feel the penetration of the mosquito nose, feel the blood being sucked away, lol. We did two type of meditation in this camp, walking meditation and oso sitting meditation.

in this camp too, there is some games. looks simple, but enjoyable. for example, we are to untangle ourself to form a circle, whic my group apparently form 3 circles, lol. there is oso one game where we are to roll ourself on a human-body platform, lol. feel the power of massage when a person roll over u, kekeke. morning exercise huh, we jogged at speedy there, and we oso had a so called natural walk to the river. hahaha. but bro ooi knowledge on all the plants and their usage really impressed me. and orh yea, lead by sis hoay2, we feel the energy from the sun. absorb it absorb it, u will feel btr and fresh.

that's how we become a plant and absorb Sun energy, interesting huh.

orh yea, we also had a dhamma tunes for our first night. ever heard of dhamma tunes? here, check it out:
http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2008/9/4/central/1926838&sec=central

(the star online)

http://sulimation.webs.com/dharmatunes.html
(the official web if i am not wrg)
we had a lovely enjoyable night fill with Dhamma Hymms. Orh "Brahma of My Heart" and "My Beautiful Friend" are among my favorites. with a lot of other hymms, we really enjoy that night. Dharma Tunes editor-in-chief Bro Chong Su Lim and his son perform at our PBHP that night, a privilege for us to meet them. hahaha.

we bought Dhamma Tunes music book. the person in purple shirt, that's Dharma Tunes editor-in-chief Bro Chong Su Lim, and the sky blue t-shirt, that's his son.

Ask me on what i laern fr this camp? err, i oso nt that sure ba, perhaps the correct way to meditate. hahahaha. forget bout that, it's a meditation camp, sure i learn how to meditate. lol. ony the question is whether i have the commitment to continue meditate after the camp. that's a very gd ques to ask myself. anyway, i still enjoy this camp. . . glad that i joined after all.

this is my 2nd family, founded through DYC camp. clockwise fr top, me (rank 6), my bro (rank 4), terk wah (8), hoay2 (1), hoay yee (2), kai chur (3), siew ling (5) and jane (7). More family members will join soon. . . weeeee. . .

snapping photo during our morning walk.

hahaha, purposely show this photo to show miss kee. hahahaha. OMG i getting naughtier, that's the comment i receive fr her, lol. hahaha, at camp, u knw, i kept kacau kacau her, for fun, as usual, my behavior. hahahaha, and she will always remind me: "remember, Jan 5th!". . . kakaka, so funny. hahahaha.

Gua Tempurung Trip...

2008-12-22T18:51:00.005+08:00

The plan wan done long ago and we carried it out last Thursday, our trip to Gua Tempurung.
Time: 7.15am till 8**pm
Members: me, my bro, chee hoo, hoay2, hoay yee, siew kuan, jane, terk wah, yin shia, puiyi
Transport: two cars
Driver: Chee Hoo & Siew Kuan
Fee: RM20 for Gua Tempurung Grand Tour, RM4 for petrol, food is self-paid

okay... Gua Tempurung honestly wasn't tat challenging after all, sap sap water, lol. the Grand Tour, the so called most challenging tour, bring us throughout the cave, enter via stairway, out via stream. crap crap crap at the beginning fr the tour guide which i don't bother at all, sry. muahahahaha. finally our last platform, the fun begins. if we off all the available light, welcome to the dark life, you see nth, not even your own hand. btw, not to forget that our group join with another two group of youngster becoming 27 of us with one tour guide.

not the whole tour wasn't as challenging as i expected it to be. this was my third time goin, but first time taking the grand tour. we went in around, err 10**am, came back out, err 2**pm ba if i'mwrg. nth much to talk about the tour except that i enjoy the moment i spent together with my friends:

my bro, i say he is the "assistant tour guide". well, u knw my bro, love to help others. all the way throughout the tour, he help all of us go through the tough part, climbing, sliding, and he keep us on count, to prevent any mishap. bro, u are great man.
chee hoo, the so called "tour guide". well, he been here before, and he remembered most of the interesting part of the cave in the beginning, where the tour guide usually shows some creativity out of the stalactites and stalagmites. instead of hearing the tour guide, we listen to chee hoo. lol
terk wah, hah, the blur blur guy, hahaha. well, nth much bout him, except he wounded himself in the cave. erhm, not big wound, juz a minor injury, a small injury to his elbow when he slide down. dun cry dun cry. luckily u did not hurt ur face.
hoay2 and hoay yee, the environmentalist sisters. what would u expect other than the passion from them to enjoy gua tempurung. hoay yee, unfortunately lost both her shoe first base layer in the mid-tour, in the stream, lol. nvm hoay yee, u are doin foot therapy for free.
jane, the usual joker. crack all kind of funny stuff. hahahaha. everyone's day is brighter with laughter from her.
yin shia, the first-timer. did u enjoy it? apparently she wore a pair of slippers to gua tempurung, wow. So, since i am wearing shoes and i brought along a pair of sandals, i lend her my sandals to wear. despite a bit big to her foot, but still she manage to wear it.
siew kuan, err, i dunno eh... sry... coz i din really get to knw her, but i knw if u got any injury, don't worry, she's a St John. ^^
puiyi was the baby-like when she enter the cave. there is one place where we had to slide down, and it was so humorous, she shouted as though she were giving birth, lol, but finally she did it, gratz to u. btw, he hit her head 4 times in the cave.
me, the VIP, lol. well, i do important, coz i am the backpack boy. yeap, i carry a bag inside, not a waterproof wan though. why, coz i am the one carry their car keys and camera in my bag into the cave. of course their car keys and camera are sealed in a waterproof plastic bag b4 they are kept in my bag. hahahaha. see, i am the VVVVVVVIP. hahahaha, jkjkjk.

end of tour, and we had our shower. wash away all the sand, all the impurities, all the mineral, all the bat's erhm, bat's leftover, shoo shoo shoo, wash away all of you. by the time we done everything, it's like ard 4**pm. between ipoh and kampar, we finally settle to eat at kampar tesco, food court. back to ti, we had 2nd round dinner, opposite gd fortune restaurant there. we had what we call it in english ar, err, wtever it is called, ikan pari pari bakar and squid with kangkung. chinese tea as drinks.
i dun have any raw photos, so sry cant post it here. sobsob, yet another outing with frens oveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer, haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. thx for the trip, thx for the fun, thx for everything. i enjoy it. muackzzzzz. ^^

Memorable KL Trip...^^

2008-12-08T19:39:00.025+08:00

6th and 7th Dec, a memorable outing for me... went to KL with friends for a musical performance - "Praises to the Tathagata" IV - at PGRM. It's at eleventh hour that i joined this trip, err, on 4th dec night. we were out for yumcha when siew ling told us that there is extra tickets for the performance. and that is how i recruited into the group. tada...

Clockwise fr back, Terk Wah the "wood", Siew Ling the joker, Kai Chur the assistant tour guide aka "p__" erhm erhm, Kooi Ling the teacher, me the cameraman, and Hoay2 the tour guide aka our driver, coz she drove to KL.

We came here by bus except hoay2 who went to KL earlier on Friday, so she meet up with us in Mid Valley just in time to join us for the show, "BOLTZ". yeap, we watched Boltz at GSC Mid Valley. Weee.... that show is funny, cute, and touching... you should go watch it...

Hey, they were not in the pic earlier, how come? (jkjk... i knw it's not funny). We came here to KL in two groups actually, mine 7am bus, and the other 12pm bus (if i'm nt wrg). so let me introduce, clockwise fr back, winnie, eng hong, kuan yee, kai chur, yen ni (mind the spelling), terk wah, siew ling, chin seng, hoay2, me. We regroup together at PGRM there b4 the performance start. the ten of us overnight at Bodhi Workshop, err, a Buddhist centre at Pudu area there. kooi ling went to her friend's house to overnight. Below is the pic of our accomodation:

everybody crawled into their sleeping bag, muahahaha, it's superb cold. the air-con functioning very gd. hahahaha.

we spent like whole morning and afternoon in Mid Valley for the first day. lol. we browse and browse and browse from shop to shop. i managed to buy myself two bodygloves T-shirt, RM62.** for two. it's consider very cheap already, plus it is YearEndSale ma. at least buy smthing for myself b4 i come back. hahaha. i wanna buy wallet too, but since i'm a bit choosy, so i did nt get one. orh, our lunch at SUSHI KING cost us RM100 for five of us (that's when hoay2 havent joined us). there is one waitress when we asked for bill, and she came back asking cold, or hot (she thought us wanna refill our drinks, lol). hahaha, so funny.

it's abit embarrasing, omg... notice the hat i wearing, we lend it fr the stall nearby... lol... i saw most of the passer-by laugh at me, muahahaha, but nvm, at least i made them laugh...^^

Dinner time, and we had it at err, is it called "la Manila"; wutever it is named... my meal cost me RM20, that's expensive... eh, i don't care wasting money on foods AT times, not that i alwiz have the chance to eat expensive food either, so once in a while, i say ONCE in a while is fine for me. muahahahaha. this is also the place where i first had my taste on EXPRESSO... pheewit... it's very bitter, duh, but i add in 3 packets of sugar and it tasted like normal kopi O we usually drink at kopitiam. hahahaha.

wanna knw the exact name of this cafe, read the name behind there. hahaa. the 6 of us.

my RM20 meal. my expresssssssssso cost me RM4, and the wutever western food, sm chicken thingy i ordered cost me RM15.**, muahahaha.

so cute, nt both of u, erhm erhm, but the "stone"-bread. hahaha, jkjk, dun angry dun angry

the musical performance was fully conducted in mandarin, ||| great, but i think i understood err, perhaps 60% of the performance, bcoz they use quite a simple mandarin, thank Buddha. hahaha. it's actually a musical performance of Buddhist hymms with Dhamma talk along with the performance. Named the "Praises to the Tathagata" IV, it was organised by a Bodhi Buddhist group. i cant tell u much of the detail, cause i am a "kong jiao", ooops, i mean "xiang jiao (banana)". i dunno how to read all the details in mandarin, so sry ba... no camera was allowed into the performing hall, so no photos taken of the performance. wanna watch the performance?? wait for a dvd they releasing soon, perhaps 2-3 months fr now.

the tickets for the performance, RM40 each... worthwhile...

err, it's a i oso dunno what it is called, sm buddhist thingy, statue?pagoda? it's given to all those major sponsor for this event.

nth special, but we like the backgrd... muahahaha...

err, what's his role again, the actor, err, dammit, i dunno anything, but i knw he is the central of attraction during the photo session. hahaha. hey, look, siew ling is enlighted... cool man...

photographing with friends... erhm, i am the second youngest in that photo, erhm erhm.

one day is overed, juz like that, so fast... we were tired, but guess what, some of us head out for supper at 1230am. lol. PJ street, or shall we called it garbage street. orh gosh, the rubbish were all over the floor. if we had snapped a photo of it, i bet it can win RM50 fr The Star newspaper. yeeeew, dirty street, dirty malaysians. finally we had our supper at a fried mee hawker stall. guess again what's the price?? Shockingly, two 3person-plate fried mee, and one 2person-plate, with drinks cost us RM52... it's like, is it for real... orh God... i can like have dozens of plate here in TI... unexpectable... and one more thing, i cant believe KL-rian can still chunk in supper late past midnight. even worse, parents brought their children out for supper at this time, what a bad example. late nightlife/midnitelife at KL, i say it's horrible and creepy.

next day, was my first time goin to times square and starhill gallery. yeap, we went to starhill gallery for the artseni gallery exhibition, and had the chance to meet the artist, Susanna Goho-Quek. Dunno her?? read The Star paper Metro dated December 2nd 2008. Or juz click on the link here:

http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2008/12/2/central/2655115&sec=central

She is in her 60's, and most of her arts are based on childhood memories. She wants to bring back those memories for others who may have forgotten their happiness during childhood. now, she wanna do smthing for the community, so her paintings and craft are sold to raise fund for the less fortunate. by any chance, if u are able to help, pls do so. Gambate Susanna, i believe you will raise alot of fund to help the less fortunates.

snapping photo with the artist, Susanna Goho-Quek...

starhill gallery was indeed fabulous, lets juz say it is high class. the time piece there looks very nice, but the price looks even nicer. i saw one, and it cost err, RM3**K. take that. and the security was tight, and abit troublesome. we were require to register, and given a visitor pass with bar code on it. the security will check our bar code at certain place b4 we can go through. lol. wow, Gucci store, we entered and came out empty-handed, well duh, the price is so expensive. A tie cost RM610, and i can buy 6 GMV ties with that. orh yea, some of the bag at Gucci is made of PIG skin, and the pig in our group is so sad. muahahaha, but she is proud that her skin worth so much... =.-''' (i knw u knw i meant who, muahahaha, sayang sayang, dun angry dun angry)

i dunno wic part of starhill gallery is it, but i knw we are in starhill gallery, kakaka...

took this photo fr i oso dunno wic floor... but it looks so grand and beautiful... below is the stage for the musical performance "A Journey Through Time" II.

we actualli parked our car at time square and walk our way to starhill. we did not manage to browse through times square due to shortage of time, but we did spend some money at Borders bookshop. and we had our dinner here too, this time at food court. muahahaha. b4 we left, we watched some xmas performance here at times square by kids... it's free to watch anyway... and finally we made our journey home. everybody was tired, but we still managed to hold ourselves till we reach ti with laughter and chit-chatting. it is sad that fun time overed so fast, but thx for giving me the chance to have the fun. looking forward for another friends outing soon... any outings... so boring to spend time alone, for i am a person who prefer excitement and merry surroundings.

pic above and below, the beautiful Xmas tree setup at Times Square. there are actually reindeers swirling up the tree and a santa at the bottom.

happy santa family... weee...

i still rmb how i asked the passer-by to help us take this photo. i said:
"excuse me, may u help us snap the photo... may u try to get the best quality bcoz i think u are a good photographer."
and he snapped few photos with passion, perhaps, and come to asked if the photos ok or not. lol. coz earlier i saw him snapping photos of his gf o wife, using canon ixus 850IS, with angle, err, lets juz say he gave me the impression as a photographer. muahahaha.

SW33T 16th DYC...

2008-11-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh, 16th Dhamma Youth Camp (DYC) is overed... sobsob... it happen so fast... i really miss the camp now... i miss all the friends i made... i miss the moment we share there... i miss the things we did together there... i miss the atmosphere there... i miss the time we ate together... i miss the time we sleep together... Juz made new friendship, juz met few days, and the time past so fast... urgh...

at first, i thought the camp would be boring because i did not knw much of the committee... but i was wrong... as soon as i get along more friends, i never felt lonely anymore. we share laughter together most of the time... so enjoyable... the camp was from 19th to 23rd of November. b4 the camp, we already get to knw each other fr the pre-preparation for the camp, but in the camp tat we get to knw each other better. it's a blessing that we are able to get to knw each other...

bunch of committees took photo early in the morning, around 130am or 2am, hahaa

sobsob... i have to be the camera-man...

sadly i am in pa/multimedia/photograph department, so most of the time u wont be able to c me in the photos, sobsob... but working in this department is not tat bad afterall, despite lacking of manpower. imagine only three committees handling the whole camp pa/multimedia/photograph system. have to set up the pa, have to slide the powerpoint, have to take photos, tiring, but worthwhile... hahaa...

My head and me in the PA room. This room worth RM60k+, if i'm not wrong. the complete pa system with laptop and dvd player. yes, it is air-conditioned.

the entire camp last for 5 days, but we committees come in one night earlier, so that makes it 5D5N for us committees. hahaa. throughout the whole camp, we committees dun have enough of sleep, usually after meeting it would be like 1am+ and we have to do some OT before we can really sleep. for instant the last night i have to sleep at 4am because have to do some important stuff. haiz. but doesnt matter, bcoz not just me have to OT, there is some other committees accompany me to burn the midnight oil. wakaka.

my bro and i, thought of renewing our photo of us together

the family in-laws... hahaa... fr left, my bro, sis hoay hoay, sis hoay yee, and me. AKA big gan, big leow, small leow, small gan. my bro call them sister in laws, dun ask me why, so i join in calling them sister in laws too. hahahaa.

wonder what that is? just a prop for talent night. hey, i drew the eyes and mouth.

snapping photos together in the midnight to recharge our battery. lol

cute face by sis ong hsiao ting, and choking face by bro cheang chee hoo.

there is one slot - safe n sound workshop - which get quite a good feedback. it's basically about self-defense and awareness on safety. the speaker came all the way from kedah to giv us awareness talk. his session here was really amazing. he was a black belt tae kwan do master and have the permit to cane prisoners. everybody loves this slot, includin myself. kakaka.

one of the slide that interest me. the quotes there interest me, lol.

fight fight fight...

the left is bro victor ooi, and the right is bro abc. bro victor is the speaker.

group photo with bro victor ooi's team

bout talent night, everybody loves it. the atmosphere tat night was truly amazing. laughter is everywhere. the spirit is there. the excitement is there. performance and singing, every group did it very well. each group require to do two performance, 1st is singing a buddha hymm with choreographing and 2nd is smthing like "american got talent". well done every group. btw, i oso got perform, that is singing, weeee.... in committees performance of our camp theme song (i am the lead singer, omg)

our great handsome cool videoman. that night, he is juz like a model, everyone of us kept snapping photos with him, muahaha.

sis kai chur and me in the make-up room. yes, i knw u are laughing, that is lipstick on my lips. i am require to make up for our committee performance in talent night, unfortunately. sis kai chur, one of our great make-up instructor. she did the lipstick on me.

tis is our committees' performance, singing and choreographing our camp theme songs. (note: tis photo was taken in opening ceremony, the performance we did during talent night was not snapped)

come to treasure hunt, we had it outside of pbhp. gosh, the map of the treasure hunt was so big, fr rumah mesra to taska swam to moonlight to vegetarian restaurant to market and back to pbhp. super tiring because have to walk all the way and under the hot sun. orh yea, i got sun burned on my neck. =.+'''

committees briefing b4 the treasure hunt begins...

this is my group for treasure hunt. i wasn't part of mentor, but was asked to become mentor for this slot due to lack of manpower, i mean male-manpower. they are worry of the safety of some female mentor, so each group is comprised of one male and female mentor, and i am dragged into this group to join sis ong hsiao ting (the gurl who wear white shirt and with my hand on her head).

wow, look at what my bro doin... so funny... hahahaha...

a gd rest and sleep after treasure hunt in the main hall with air-con and some lullaby.

i really enjoy this camp very much. it resulted btr than i expect. at first i felt lonely, but i was wrong. by any chance, i wish to meet and hang around with them again. crazeee moment. happy moment. fun moment. thanks for all the sweet moment u all left in me. i should have become a committee in form 4, but i let go of the opportunity and ony grab the opportunity in lower six. might be a bit late, but it is still a blessing for me to able to meet you all. sweet 16th DYC, i love u.

our camp leader, sis lee siew ling. she is quite experienced in this camp, coz she conducted this camp a few time b4. she did a great work for the whole camp. sadhu sadhu sadhu.

i find this photo interesting. sis kai chur face and bro joo keat reaction. it seems like sis kai chur thinking of smthing to say and bro joo keat looking in confusion. hahaha.

hey, tat's me playing with my teddy bear. erhm, it wasn't my teddy bear actualli, it belong to sis hsiao ting. but the bear was so soft to be hug and touch, that's why i kept playing with it throughout the camp.

this was the night when bro chee hoo have to leave the camp bcoz he got smthing to do. everybody was acting a scene of heavy hearted to see him leave. hahaha.

me and sis hsiao ting. she had my compliment for her talent in stage performance. i would say she is talented to become a producer, director and actress. her PR is good too. orh yea, she master her english quite fluent too, despite chinese educated. (erhm, bro oh oso praise you, so dun say i'm flattering, muahahaha). keep it up, u will always have my support.

bro ying bin and me. bro ying bin say we may address him as YB, but it may stand for Yang Berhormat, or "Yang Bodoh". lol, jkjk, dun kill me ya. hahaha.

last but not least, this is sis kow kwan yee. she is a jovial and happy person. i nvr see her sad or angry. everytime she would just be smiling and create a sense of happiness among other. and she is great in her PR too, and that's how i get to knw her. sis kwan yee, good luck in ur journalism. i wanna c ur article in newspaper or magazines or btr, publish a book. i will definitely read ur articles, if it's in english. hahahaha.

Crazee Nitezz!!

2008-11-05T21:19:00.009+08:00

3rd of November, hmmm, nothing special about that day. What so special? That night was the day we celebrated Julianna's birthday in Tea Corner. Only 5 of us - me, wlam, yan, evelyn and lulu - celebrated it with her. Nevertheless, we had fun that night. I am lazy to elaborate on the details, because it would be boring. So, here are some pictures of that night for you to enjoy:

The Birthday Girl, Julianna

The Birthday Cake: American smthing smthing... oops, forgotten. The cake bought from Justo Eat bakery. Btw, don't mind the knife.

Weng Lam making a call, XD

Evelyn tasting the cake with feelings, hehee.

Yan, Evelyn and Julianna. 3 beauty of Teluk Intan.

urgh, why am i not smiling...

hmmm, suspicious suspicious...

What's with the hand?? lol...

On the street... we were like drunken teens that night. We waited until no traffic on the road, then jump onto the street and snap photos. hahaha. crazy teens.

What you looking at...

Anybody know where this is?? Yeap, it's the crossroad at TNB there. Nice tree, artificially. We were crazy enough to snap photos there while all the passer by staring at us. Lol, seems humiliating. They must have thought that wow, those tree really attract tourist to snap photos there. ^^

Last but not least, guess what this for? I guess u know. It's her birthday present from me. ^^

A Simple Aimless Outing!!

2008-10-28T11:44:00.001+08:00

A simple aimless outing can actually be fun. Put aside all those stress and frustration aside and enjoy a peace of mind. Drive your car around the town or countryside without a fix destination despite wasting some fuel, or simply hang around a friends place without purpose. Sound quite ridiculous to carry out such a plan, am I right?

That's what my friend and I did last Monday, during Deepavali. Supposed we had a plan in the afternoon, i.e. had a Deepa-lunch at Jeya's house, but was cancelled due to some circumstances. Nevertheless, we had come up with plan-B. We went to Mr Raja's house for Deepa-lunch instead. What we did after enjoying our lunch sounds stupid. We did what I had mentioned earlier - a simple aimless outing. We went to Siew Shia house for no reasons, we loiter at the riverside park and we did a bit of sightseeing in Teluk Intan. That was fun!

At first I really felt like an idiot wasting our time, but soon I realized that I am not stressed or frustrated. It's calm and peaceful. The moment shared with friends, chit-chatting, was really enjoying. I felt the happiness there. I really enjoyed that moment. Wish there is more of that moment to come soon. Hahaa. I suggest you to try it out yourself. Maybe it IS a waste of time and money, but sacrificing those for peace and calmness is worthwhile, that's my point of view. Hahaa!

I flunked my exam!!

2008-10-27T01:52:00.004+08:00

Well, as mentioned in my title, I flunked my lower six year-end exam. Though results are yet to out soon, but I realize how bad I did those papers. Wonder how I flunk it? Simple, never study and never revise. Why? Because I am lazy. Hehee!

Well, actually there are some factors that contribute to my current condition.

Pure laziness, honestly. Ever see me studying diligently? Neh, not from the past until the present moment. Maybe in the future you might be, but that's in the future, so lets not talk about it. Laziness, seems to be part of my life, or should I say it is a habit. Yes, it IS a habit! I develop it through the years. Everytime, either I am loitering somewhere else or I am enjoying myself with any mean of entertainment. Or else, I am lying on the bed day-dreaming and eventually fall asleep.
I guess I took the wrong path from the beginning. Yes, I thought I love science, but sadly, form 6 journey prove me wrong. I like science generally, not theoretically nor in-depth study about science. Yes, I love to watch those documentary programmes - mythbuster, discovery, nat geo - but the programmes tell us the myth behind how something function generally, am I wrong? As my form 6 journey progress, I find it less and less interesting to study science (I'm taking Physic-Chem). Maybe I should have taken the path of art stream instead.
Environment factor. Hey, am I suppose to blame environment? Sounds bad blaming something that has done nothing wrong, lol. Ok, most of my friends departed to their respective pre-U studies, leaving minute percentage of them being around me. Yes, I must adapt to the changes, but it felt so empty without them. The moment we share, the influence they had on me, it seems to be gone. I felt so empty, like a part of me had died. Next, the teachers. Neh, just skip this. In college/university, usually there is a "kia su" syndrome around, so everybody would be studying and it would affect you to study as well. It even happen in the accomodation u stay. But at house/school, the effect is not that influentia. Perhaps it is me who are purely lazy and just giving excuses. Anyway, I still stand firmly that college/university environment will definitely influence you to study as compare to school/house environment. Maybe some exception to those truly hardworking students. Hehee!

I have lost my interest in form 6. Hey, don't give up so soon! Urgh, I should have... I should have... I should have... So many things "I should have...". Quit it, it's useless complaining for the things I have done it with my own judgement and decision. What to do, life has to go on despite the wrong moves we made. I am planning to study psychology in my tertiary studies. In the meantime, unless I enroll myself to college for 2009 Jan intake, I have to focus to score for my STPM. Well, I won't aim for perfection though, just do my best, and of course not flunk it, definitely not. Imagine if I flunk my STPM just because I have lost my interest in it, I must retake a pre-U study, which is a waste of time and money.

What must I do now? I will dig out the best out of me to do well in STPM, hopefully. To really achieve it, that means I must start now, in fact, I should have started earlier. Nevertheless, it's always never too late to start something! GO Small Gan, you can do it! Have faith in yourself! Despite taking the wrong path, take it as learning something extra for your knowledge. Gambate Small Gan!!! If really I had flunk it althought I did my best, then, it's alright. I know I did my best and give it a shot. On the contrary, I deserve a poor result if I did not study for it (pray pray pray, may luck always be with me, lol). Time to sleep, goodnight! zZzZzZzZ!!!

Feel Good To Talk!!!

2008-09-24T21:20:00.003+08:00

Don't you feel good when you are able to express all your problem to a person and that person is willing to listen and share his/her experiences?? I bet you do, perhaps 8 out of 10 people do. Personally, I feel good after sharing my problems with someone else, not to burden them with my problems, but to gain his/her of point of view on that particular matter. Getting different views can actually help me analyse the problem and eventually come with a solution, a good solution.

Well, I don't express my problems to my parents, but I seek help from my close trustworthy friends and teachers. They are definitely the best counsellors I can find. Honestly, I should also seek advice from my parents, but somehow, I find it uncomfortable to discuss certain problems with them, specifically my love life and some personal problems. On the contrary, it is comfortable for me to speak to my friends and teachers on the problems I facing, ironically. Perhaps, friends and teachers are not family-bonded to me which makes me easier to tell them.

I find it suffering to keep everything, especially problems to myself. I rather express it all out than storing it for centuries. Don't you feel so too?? Wouldn't it better for me to seek different point of views from all my friends and teachers? Yes, it is definitely a better solution for my problems. From those point of views, I can definitely analyse the problems from various angle, thus solving the problems. If I keep problems to myself, I think my problems may weigh to tonnes by now. Hahaa!

You might be wondering how can I express all problems, especially those involve my own secrets to my friends and teachers?? Perhaps you not even bother to wonder, hehee! Anyway, why can't I express all these to them?? I trust them, I believe they will keep it private and confidential. But I told almost every trustworthy friends and teachers, will it be still p&c?? Yes, I believe it will be. If it do happen to spread out to outsiders, so what, perhaps my friends and teachers are trying to get more point of views to aid me, so it is not a problem to me, hahaa!

Well, of course not all problems are to expose to the public, for instance family matter. To confine family problems to limited party is to protect the family. I don't really expose my family matter to public, even my friends, unless I want to, that is also I select that particular person who I think is suitable to talk to. Honestly, I did expose some of it, since I find it comfortable to express it to one of my beloved teacher. She is willing to listen (what I think is important aspect), able to generate valuable advice to me, and share her experiences in dealing this kind of problems. Well, I have a long chat with her today, which I enjoyed it, because I can really relieve some of my burden keeping the problems and matters to myself. At least I find it comfortable speaking to her about my feelings and matters.

Well, I guess I have nothing to continue, so I'll just stop here. If you do have a problems, I really suggest to you to find a trustworthy companion and comfortable speaking to for you to share your problems with him/her. Don't keep it to yourself, you will find it suffering, that is my point of view, though. For me, the best solution to all my obstacles is sharing it with my friends and teachers. They help me a lot. Thank You Very Much to all of you!! I really appreciate it!!

My 0N3 W33K H0LiDaY, Just Like THAT!!!

2008-08-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

My one week holiday - began from 16-24th of August - is a little wasted for me, i guess... Basically, I did not spent the holiday wisely I would say... err, instead of using it to rest and pump up my studies, I was slacking around, to be honest. I allocated more time going for outing instead of locking myself up studying, but somehow, I finish err lets say about 60% of the homework. Wow, never expected that... Meanwhile, most of my faraway friends did return home, for mid-semester break or holiday. Their return at least brought some excitement to my life...
Lets see how i completely waste my precious time...

The very first morning of the holiday, I am already geared up for my first outing with friends. This outing comprised of Julianna (the stick gal), Syann, Yan2, Lulu (the businessman), and of course me (the driver). Well, I am abit lazy to elaborate, so I will cut short. We ate Mee Rebus at Sg. Nibong. Whatever the kopitiam name is, their mee is quite popular, you should give a try next time.
On that particular night itself I went for another "yumcha" with Xia (the sampat), Evelyn (my maid), Pei Wen (the penguin), Julianna and Lulu. This time, we had it in Poly Wata... and it was where the first time I heard PeiWen false story about a pregnant JPA scholar. Everybody was already thrill by the story, since she made it so real and feel with suspense, lastly she confessed that the whole story was fiction. LOL, like wtf, we were cheated!! Ha3, gd try though, you did manage to trick us, and thanks, u bring laughter to us. PeiWen, you wait, we will trick you back someday, SOMEDAY. hahahahahaha!!!!

The next outing would be err, let me think for a moment. Orh yea, yumcha with Shawn (the KayTeeTee guy), Kumar (the brainwashed nerd), Lulu and PeiWen aka Samantha. Again, we had it in Poly Wata. The usual questions pop up ~ how's life? ~ how u doin? ~ how's sch/college ~ bla bla bla ~. Soon, I'm hearing PeiWen 2nd attempt to trick (not me, but Shawn n Kumar) with the same false story. Well, Shawn got caught as far as I know. hahaha. The 1st round yumcha finish, followed by 2nd round yumcha in mamak stall, i.e. anthony stall. PeiWen couldn't make it though for the 2nd round. Since I am tempted to eat, I ordered roti planta to satisfy my stomach... ^^

Tuesday is when Guo Sheng (the EXCELLENT) and Yeet Chien (the smart) came back fr INTI. They are JPA scholar on actuarial science and soon leaving for USA. Guo Sheng invite us for an outing, coincidentally PeiWen did the same thing, thus we had a joined-outing, decided to have steamboat on Wednesday night. Unfortuanately, last minute change of plan made us gather at Lana Coffee House. This outing participated by Guo Sheng, Yeet Chien, Weng Lam (the hardworking), Quah (the flirter), Lulu, me (the lazee), Juli, PeiWen, Syann, Phong (my house manager). They had second round with "chee cheong fun", while peiwen and me head home instead.

Thursday was when I went to Ipoh with Shawn and Kumar... going there without objective to be precise, just to waste some boring time. In the bus, Kumar explain something bout err, "60 degree theory", related to how u relate to another person, something la, dun really know what it is. Anyone can explain???? as usual, we went to Ipoh Parade, window shopping. We catch the show on Death Race. The show was a bit disappointing, since the settings was same throughout the entire show, and the screenplay was predicted. But certain action was quite thrilling though. Some scenes were quite illogical, for instance, a Dodge Ram and an oil-tanker could manage to chase up a Ford Mustang GT-R, lol. and b4 i forget, Kumar finish his popcorn BEFORE the show even started, omg. Then, the cologne issue. Kumar is fated not to buy Calvin Klein cologne, sry Kumar, or maybe he is fated not to use cologne, since his Adidas cologne broke, well, pity u. Meanwhile, Shawn bought himself a RM36.** Adidas cologne, erhm erhm, I bet your gf would love it... ^^

Move on to outing with my best friend and advisor, Jeya Prasad the tall thin guy. He came home on Thursday which sadly he cant join us for the outing to Ipoh. Nevertheless, I ask him out on Friday's night to mamak stall, again Anthony stall. this time sadly Kumar and Shawn were unable to join, since Kumar is leaving back to matriculation in N9, and Shawn went to Penang. Soon, unexpectedly we were joined by Mike and Stephen, the Anthonians. Nvm, the more the merrier, so it sounds. The late comer would be Quah, Lulu and Yan2. I had two cup of teh tarik and one roti planta throughout the outing fr 830-11+pm.
Today, Saturday, since I'm having lunch by myself, I invited along Jeya and Lulu to join me in Lana Coffee House. I had this rice - spicy squid rice - which actually the spice is not spicy, lol. Later, I brought home with me Jeya. Well, just surf the net, watch top gear, and watch "don't mess with the Zohan". Terrible show, not suitable for minors.

Orh I almost forgot one outing with Juli, Syann, Yeet Chien, Weng Lam and Lulu. It's was Friday morning where we gather to have breakfast in town, wasting 80cent of parking coupon, lol. Hahaha, dun care la, but luckily we got to our car just in time b4 the town council issuing summons to us. We did put our parking ticket, it was just almost the time limit when we reached our cars. Hehee.

Throughout the holiday, my tuition is on except for few. Of what you have read, you make the judgement, did i waste my holiday?? I guess I did waste most of it, but, BUT, if u let me choose between studies and friends, I would say friends come first... ^^ Anyway, I am glad that my holidays were spent with all my friends, tyvm guys and gals. I am glad that I see her few times too, despite some problems I encounter. Haiz, sch is resuming on Monday, feeling a bit lazy to resume. As she said, wish that time can just stop at this moment, but i know it's impossible. Till then, see u guys and gals soon in the next holiday. For those in STPM with me, we can still meet easily. Happy resume study to everybody. Take care!!! Don't come back like a stick!!! And sry, there isn't any photo to be uploaded.

May you all be WELL & HAPPY!!

Brief Introduction of Myself!!!

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That's me!!

~ I'm Small Gan ( very 无聊 aka nonsense as what other say, ^^ )
~ 17 goin 18, a Virgorian
~ have a caliber brother and two sister, one pretty, one cute
~ enrolling in STPM ( Physic-Chem )
~ nvr had a relationship, ( primary sch wan not count )
~ but crush on two gurls ( XD )
~ a chinese, i mean a banana chinese ( knw how to speak and listen ok )
~ my english is terribly broken, and bm isn't tat good either
~ nvr knw how to play music instrument ( wish i could play )
~ go for scout ( weee, a king scout, ahem, skill-LESS )
~ play tennis ( well, quite suck at it )
~ used to sing in choir ( 3 years, best memories in secondary sch )
~ went for national service in kedah ( miss it, wish you all get selected to go )
~ aimless, but love to read on self improvement
~ wish to be successful ( duh )
~ dream b4 to bcom a chef and open a restaurant, i mean a high class one
~ oso wish b4 to bcom event organisers ( experienced it b4, thx to Sunway University College )
~ nvr like to studies
~ i'm really a shy and introvert guy, but no one gonna blive it
~ love to mix with gurls most of the time ( sry guys )
~ terribly lack of confidence ( wish to improve on )